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Chapters (51)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. One
  4. Two
  5. Three
  6. Four
  7. Five
  8. Six
  9. Seven
  10. Eight
  11. Nine
  12. Ten
  13. Eleven
  14. Twelve
  15. Thirteen
  16. Fourteen
  17. Fifteen
  18. Sixteen
  19. Seventeen
  20. Eighteen
  21. Nineteen
  22. Twenty
  23. Twenty-One
  24. Twenty-Two
  25. Twenty-Three
  26. Twenty-Four
  27. Twenty-Five
  28. Twenty-Six
  29. Twenty-Seven
  30. Twenty-Eight
  31. Twenty-Nine
  32. Thirty
  33. Thirty-One
  34. Thirty-Two
  35. Thirty-Three
  36. Thirty-Four
  37. Thirty-Five
  38. Thirty-Six
  39. Thirty-Seven
  40. Thirty-Eight
  41. Thirty-Nine
  42. Forty
  43. Forty-One
  44. Forty-Two
  45. Forty-Three
  46. Acknowledgments
  47. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  48. About the Author
  49. About the Book
  50. Also by Alison Gaylin
  51. About the Publisher

“Yeah? What do you know about them? Any more than I do?”

“Robin?”

“You guys met in Arizona, when you were in med school.”

“Yes.”

“Was Mom from Arizona, or had she moved there from somewhere else?”

“She grew up in a foster home in Arizona. I don’t know exactly where.”

“How could you not know exactly where?”

“She doesn’t like to talk about it.”

“But . . . she’s your wife.”

“So that means I have a right to make her unhappy?” There was an edge to his voice, a tightness in it.

Robin moved to the refrigerator, poured herself another glass of wine. “I’m sorry,” she said. “I’m just . . . I’m a little . . .” Robin took a long sip. The silence in her house. The emptiness. She could practically feel it. Who was she to lecture her father about what spouses should and shouldn’t know about each other? “You’re a good husband, Dad,” she said. “You’re a good person.”

There was a long pause on the other end of the line, the Yankees game blaring. Kay made his way through a player’s stats and called strike one before her father spoke. “Robbie?”

“Yeah?”

“Is everything okay?”

“What? Yeah. I’m fine.”

“You and Eric?”

“He’s fine. We’re fine. He’s busy.”

“Mom seemed to think you two might be having some issues.”

“She did?”

“Look, honey, I know she always gives the best advice. But since she’s out, you know . . . I’m happy to pinch-hit.”

“Oh, jeez, Dad. Pinch-hit. Seriously?”

“I’ve got a pretty good batting average, you know. In the, uh, game of advice.”

Robin closed her eyes. Now in his late sixties and semiretired, Dad maintained a private practice in town, but for most of his career he’d treated the criminally insane on Wards Island, where she was pretty sure metaphors like that one would have gotten him murdered. “I wasn’t calling to talk to Mom about Eric.”

“I don’t mean to pry.”

“I swear.”

“All right. Sorry. I’ll let her know you called.”

She started to say good-bye, but he stopped her. “Can I ask you a question?”

“Sure.”

“Have we been good parents to you?”

Robin blinked at the phone. “What? Of course you have. What are you talking about?”

“Nothing.”

“Dad?”

“I’m just thinking out loud, honey. Looking back . . .”

Robin took another swallow of wine, waiting for more. But there was nothing. Only her father’s slow exhale, the muffled sounds of the game. “Everything’s fine,” he said, finally. “You know how melancholy I get when the Yankees lose.”