Back Never Look Back
Chapters (51)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. One
  4. Two
  5. Three
  6. Four
  7. Five
  8. Six
  9. Seven
  10. Eight
  11. Nine
  12. Ten
  13. Eleven
  14. Twelve
  15. Thirteen
  16. Fourteen
  17. Fifteen
  18. Sixteen
  19. Seventeen
  20. Eighteen
  21. Nineteen
  22. Twenty
  23. Twenty-One
  24. Twenty-Two
  25. Twenty-Three
  26. Twenty-Four
  27. Twenty-Five
  28. Twenty-Six
  29. Twenty-Seven
  30. Twenty-Eight
  31. Twenty-Nine
  32. Thirty
  33. Thirty-One
  34. Thirty-Two
  35. Thirty-Three
  36. Thirty-Four
  37. Thirty-Five
  38. Thirty-Six
  39. Thirty-Seven
  40. Thirty-Eight
  41. Thirty-Nine
  42. Forty
  43. Forty-One
  44. Forty-Two
  45. Forty-Three
  46. Acknowledgments
  47. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  48. About the Author
  49. About the Book
  50. Also by Alison Gaylin
  51. About the Publisher

All these years later, it had stuck in her mind—the announcer’s voice, the teens on the TV screen, the blaze of their shotguns, that very same blaze as in her mother’s eyes. The shock she’d felt. The fear. Robin had never seen Mom that angry, not before then or since. Even her father had seemed confused. The way he’d looked at her, something shifting in his eyes. Calm down, Renee. You’re frightening your daughter.

Robin looked at Eileen. “Your parents let you watch that?”

She shrugged. “It was just a TV movie.”

Robin nodded slowly. “You’re right,” she said. “It was.”

She put her mug of coffee down and stood.

“Robin,” said Eileen. “Are you okay?”

“I’m fine,” Robin said, though she couldn’t look at her. “Everything’s fine.”

ALONE AT HER house in the Westchester County suburb of Tarry Ridge, Robin poured herself a glass of sauvignon blanc, made a Gruyère and spinach omelet for one. Her husband had texted her while she was still on the train:

Dinner with important source. Will come home as soon as I can. Love you.

Ok, she’d texted back. Just those two letters. She didn’t trust herself to type more.

The show her husband worked for, Shawn Labatoir’s Anger Management, was a barely controlled vent-fest. A rotating group of so-called pundits screaming at each other without listening as Labatoir stood at his podium, smirking out the easiest seven-figure salary ever. The idea that Eric would be dining with an important, unnamed source for the show was, to put it mildly, hard to believe.

But that wasn’t what had bothered her most about Eric’s text. It had been the Love you part, the way it had been tacked on at the end as an afterthought, a covering of tracks . . .

“Stop.” She said it out loud. “Just stop.”