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Chapters (51)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. One
  4. Two
  5. Three
  6. Four
  7. Five
  8. Six
  9. Seven
  10. Eight
  11. Nine
  12. Ten
  13. Eleven
  14. Twelve
  15. Thirteen
  16. Fourteen
  17. Fifteen
  18. Sixteen
  19. Seventeen
  20. Eighteen
  21. Nineteen
  22. Twenty
  23. Twenty-One
  24. Twenty-Two
  25. Twenty-Three
  26. Twenty-Four
  27. Twenty-Five
  28. Twenty-Six
  29. Twenty-Seven
  30. Twenty-Eight
  31. Twenty-Nine
  32. Thirty
  33. Thirty-One
  34. Thirty-Two
  35. Thirty-Three
  36. Thirty-Four
  37. Thirty-Five
  38. Thirty-Six
  39. Thirty-Seven
  40. Thirty-Eight
  41. Thirty-Nine
  42. Forty
  43. Forty-One
  44. Forty-Two
  45. Forty-Three
  46. Acknowledgments
  47. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  48. About the Author
  49. About the Book
  50. Also by Alison Gaylin
  51. About the Publisher

Robin was still holding her mother’s hand. Eric slid her a chair, and she eased into it without letting go, without breaking eye contact for fear of upsetting her more than she was about to. “There was a break-in at your house, Mom,” she said slowly. “You and Dad were both shot.”

“Oh . . . Oh my God.”

Dr. Wu said, “Why don’t you try and tell us what you remember.”

She closed her eyes. Robin watched her mother’s gaunt face, the skin shiny and paper thin. This close, she could see it—Renee was nearly herself, almost herself but not quite, and Robin could actually feel how hard she was working to get there. “I remember . . . burning.”

“Mom?”

“Red and orange flames. Smoke so thick I couldn’t breathe . . . and demons. Little red demons dancing around . . . Oh . . . Goodness. I guess it was a dream.”

Verity turned to Robin. “She did have a fever at one point,” she said. “Sometimes, the mind fills in the blanks.”

Her mother’s hand was still in hers. “How are you feeling now, Mom?”

“Tired. Very tired. Where’s Dad, honey?”

Dr. Wu started to say something, but Eric stopped him. “Can we talk outside for a little bit?” he said. “I have a few questions.”

“Of course,” he said. And the room cleared quickly, maybe too quickly for Robin’s liking, unsure as she was how to say what needed to be said. Verity told Renee she’d be back to check her vitals in a few. And selfishly, pathetically, Robin wished that the nurse could be the one to let Mom know that her husband was dead.

Once Verity left, Robin’s mother gave her a weak smile. “I’m awfully thirsty.”

“I can imagine.”

“All that time in hell will do it to you.”

“What a terrible dream.”

“I don’t know,” Mom said. “Those little demons were kind of cute.”

“Let me see if I can get you some water.” She started to stand but her mother grasped her hand with a surprising strength. “No,” she said. “Stay.”

“Of course, Mom. I’ll do whatever you—”

“Robbie.”

“Yes?”

“Daddy died. Didn’t he?”