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  1. Praise for Maplecroft
  2. Title page
  3. Copyright page
  4. Contents
  5. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  6. THESE ARE THE THINGS AN EARTHQUAKE BRINGS
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  12. A DOCTOR, A LAWYER, A MERCHANT, A CHIEF
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  20. Phillip Zollicoffer, Professor of Biology, Miskatonic University
  21. Lizzie Andrew Borden
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  26. BE SURE YOUR SINS WILL FIND YOU OUT
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  29. I CROSS THE MAGPIE, THE MAGPIE CROSSES ME
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  31. Nance O’Neil
  32. THIS KNOT I KNIT, THIS KNOT I TIE
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  37. AND IF YOU HAVE A HORSE WITH ONE WHITE LEG . . .
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  43. THE WORST IS TO BE JUDGED WITHOUT HOPE
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  46. Lizzie Andrew Borden
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  53. BUT NETTLE SHANT HAVE NOTHING
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  55. CUT THEM ON FRIDAY, YOU CUT THEM FOR SORROW
  56. Phillip Zollicoffer, Professor of Biology, Miskatonic University
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  62. HAPPY IS THE CORPSE THAT THE RAIN SHINES ON
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  67. A DWELLING PLACE OF JACKALS, THE DESOLATION FOREVER
  68. Lizzie Andrew Borden
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  71. Nance O’Neil
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  84. Emma L. Borden
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  88. Owen Seabury, M.D.
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  91. Lizzie Andrew Borden
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  93. RIGHT CHEEK, LEFT CHEEK—WHY DO YOU BURN?
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  101. Aaron B. Stewart, Fire Chief, Farthington, Mass.
  102. Emma L. Borden
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  104. Gerald Macintyre, Telegraph Clerk, Western Union
  105. Owen Seabury, M.D.
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  107. Physalia, Z. University I Was Not Now
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  109. DEPART, ALL ANIMALS WITHOUT BONES
  110. Emma L. Borden
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  115. Owen Seabury, M.D.
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  119. Lizzie Andrew Borden
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  130. Owen Seabury, M.D.
  131. Phillip Zollicoffer. Physalia Zollicoffris.
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  137. Christoff Dane, M.D., Ph.D., University of Rhode Island, Kingston
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  139. Emma L. Borden
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  144. Owen Seabury, M.D.
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  150. Emma L. Borden
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  153. FAMILY SLAIN IN MAYFIELD
  154. Owen Seabury, M.D.
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  165. Lizzie Andrew Borden
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  176. Emma L. Borden
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  186. Owen Seabury, M.D.
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  197. Lizzie Andrew Borden
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  205. Inspector Simon Wolf
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(It would’ve gotten me out of The Wanderer, anyway. I mostly took that one because the director wants to arrange Sappho sometime this summer, and I want him to be happy with me, so he’ll keep me in mind; but it wasn’t a project that was near or dear to my heart, and I would have happily skipped it otherwise.)

And now, when I’m almost too tired to hold a pen and write this note, I have all these second, third, and fourth thoughts about the matter.

I should’ve sent Peter to Cathy Francisco or Mabel Lee. Either one of them would’ve done a perfect job in the role he wanted. And by “perfect” I mean, neither of them is a better actress than I am, and he wouldn’t prefer either of them over me.

But no. I’m too frightened of being without work. Acting is such a terrible business! If only I’d been bitten by some other bug . . . but it’s too late for that now, isn’t it?

It’s a permanent worry, I swear. Never confident of the next year’s employment, always in fear that the critics will hate you—and even more afraid they won’t notice you at all. It’s a system designed to tug and batter at one’s vanity. That’s why, I think, so many vain fools survive it.

Sometimes I worry that I’m not vain enough, and this is making me ill, or unnecessarily frantic. I don’t want to be unnecessarily frantic. I want to be calm, and quiet, with you in that lovely little town that leaves you alone. At least for a few days. Well, however long it takes for me to recover from this terrible exhaustion that’s settled so deep into my bones.

I know you said I’d find no respite from exhaustion with you, and I’m not sure if you’re making a joke or being morbid. Sometimes in your letters, I simply can’t tell.

This is why we must speak face-to-face, quietly, over drinks in that wonderful parlor. We can sip scotch or whichever wine you have on hand (you still haven’t shown me that cellar, and I’m beginning to take offense). We’ll turn the lights low, let the fire burn down—for I doubt it will be so cold, by the time I arrive. And I can tell you everything about these last two plays. And you can tell me everything that’s bothering you. All the things that make you want to push me away. I demand to hear them, no matter how dark they might drive the conversation. I’ll listen. I’ll do nothing but listen. I feel like I always talk—for the benefit of others, as often as not. I don’t even use my own words.

It’s tiresome. I’d rather listen to yours.