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Chapters (60)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Other books by James Goodhand
  4. Dedication
  5. Four’s a Crowd
  6. That Friday Feeling
  7. Work
  8. Customer Service
  9. Starting Over
  10. Sweet Seventeen
  11. Burn, Baby, Burn
  12. A Turn
  13. Go-Between
  14. Joyride
  15. In
  16. Not a Date
  17. Taken Down
  18. Killing Time
  19. Reality
  20. The Long Wait
  21. The Other Side
  22. Dropping In
  23. In the Dark
  24. Blind Alley
  25. Showtime
  26. Straight Through
  27. What Develops
  28. Last Lesson
  29. House of Horrors
  30. Room with a View
  31. Party’s Over
  32. At Sea
  33. Fireworks
  34. The Turning of Tables
  35. Home Time
  36. Our Little Chats
  37. Out of the Blue?
  38. No Capes
  39. Holding On
  40. Salvage
  41. The End
  42. On a Promise
  43. Disco Inferno
  44. Lockdown
  45. Will Parks’ Big Moment
  46. The Calm
  47. Last Request
  48. The Storm
  49. All Change
  50. A Narrow Escape
  51. An Inconvenient Delay
  52. No More Fighting
  53. Level Crossing
  54. The Beginning
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Resources
  57. Read more
  58. Read more
  59. 5.11 a.m.
  60. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

‘Tell me about – I dunno – your first time. When you ditched your V-plates.’

He only briefly contemplates lying. ‘Still firmly attached. The V-plates.’

‘That’s cool. Saving yourself for the right person …’

Will stifles his amusement at an assumption that’s worthy of a thigh-slapping laugh. Instead, he goes for a swift change of subject. An enthusiastic discussion about Geek Love follows: how they’d write a sequel, who they’d cast in the film, what the soundtrack should be. Reflected in each other’s eyes, the sky morphs from grey to white, to pink, until finally a shaft of gold pierces over the marshes.

Will thinks about earlier, how he was adamant he’d defeat the note, prove its predictions wrong. But somehow, it seems, the note came for him, and now Danny is safe and Will is alone with the girl he’s in love with. It was just, what, five hours ago, that he was hiding in his bedroom? But it feels so distant now, like it was a different him almost. So much can change, yet so little time can pass, Will thinks. The memory of sitting in his room all that time ago reminds him of the record he left on the turntable. As the sun crowns on the horizon, he pulls out his phone and finds the song. Not vinyl, but it’ll do in the circumstances.

‘What is this?’ April asks softly, normally invisible freckles dusting her nose in the light.

‘Cool tune, innit?’

The harmonies build as the chorus kicks in.

Now the night is past it’s just the sun rising.

‘Yeah. Not heard it. It’s cool.’

‘They’re called The Beloved.’

‘How old?’

Will checks the date. ‘Just the thirty-two years.’

‘Amazing.’

‘“Timeless” I think is the word.’

The sun seems to stop at halfway, as though readying itself for a final push to declare this new day begun. If he could choose a moment when time could grind to a stop, this would be it, Will thinks. It seems to be so negotiable right now – time – so unknown, so unknowable. Never mind what the clocks say; there are moments, Will now realizes, hours or maybe just minutes, that matter more than whole years. And he knows that this – this right now – is one of those moments. Because at this moment there is only now. There is nothing else.

The half-circle shimmers at its edges. Will glances at April. At the same instant, she looks at him. They’re almost touching.

Will has no idea how to kiss a girl. No opportunities for practice have ever presented themselves. The thought of it is so exciting it pulverizes him with fear. But it’s not just inexperience or nerves that stop Will from closing the small gap between them. It is as well a curious sense of losing something to look forward to, of having nothing left to achieve, that holds him back.

‘Why you laughing?’ Will whispers.