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Chapters (60)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Other books by James Goodhand
  4. Dedication
  5. Four’s a Crowd
  6. That Friday Feeling
  7. Work
  8. Customer Service
  9. Starting Over
  10. Sweet Seventeen
  11. Burn, Baby, Burn
  12. A Turn
  13. Go-Between
  14. Joyride
  15. In
  16. Not a Date
  17. Taken Down
  18. Killing Time
  19. Reality
  20. The Long Wait
  21. The Other Side
  22. Dropping In
  23. In the Dark
  24. Blind Alley
  25. Showtime
  26. Straight Through
  27. What Develops
  28. Last Lesson
  29. House of Horrors
  30. Room with a View
  31. Party’s Over
  32. At Sea
  33. Fireworks
  34. The Turning of Tables
  35. Home Time
  36. Our Little Chats
  37. Out of the Blue?
  38. No Capes
  39. Holding On
  40. Salvage
  41. The End
  42. On a Promise
  43. Disco Inferno
  44. Lockdown
  45. Will Parks’ Big Moment
  46. The Calm
  47. Last Request
  48. The Storm
  49. All Change
  50. A Narrow Escape
  51. An Inconvenient Delay
  52. No More Fighting
  53. Level Crossing
  54. The Beginning
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Resources
  57. Read more
  58. Read more
  59. 5.11 a.m.
  60. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

Will detects a shuffle of feet behind him. He moves himself, ensuring his back remains turned on all the attackers. But he can feel it too – what Danny’s saying. Inexplicably, there’s still a part of Will that wishes he could turn round and fight. That same sense of defeat, of cowardice, nags at him like it did that night in Smugglers. Even knowing now what a nonsensical bit of theatre this is, a part of him still wishes he could be involved – that he could Be A Man here.

‘Please just get in the car,’ Will whispers. Tears pour from him. ‘Please.’

‘Fuck off,’ Danny croaks, shiny spheres bulging in the corners of his own bloodshot eyes.

Will pushes himself against his brother, half hugging him. ‘No. Let’s go home. We should go home.’

Danny remains rooted to the spot, his muscle-bound body resisting the weight that Will leans against it. ‘I’ll fucking do you as well, Will,’ he spits. ‘Don’t think I won’t.’

‘I’m sorry,’ Will whispers.

Danny shoots a look past Will. His attackers have moved away. Their aggression has melted into amusement at Danny and Will’s expense.

‘I think it’s over,’ Will says. ‘Let’s go.’

He’s right. These guys have won. They smirk with satisfaction. The show is theirs. There’s nothing to fight over now.

‘Go on, fuck off home,’ Beige Mac says.

Danny barges against Will, eyeballing the group.

But they only laugh in response, already relishing their victory.

‘Please can we go home now?’ Will says again.

‘Nighty-night, pussies,’ Tracksuit Boy shouts as Will scampers into the back of the car, clinging to Danny’s arm. Danny’s hand drips with blood as he fumbles with the ignition.

‘I can’t believe you,’ Danny snaps. The tyres howl as they swerve through the pillars and out on to Coast Drive.

‘Sorry,’ Will mumbles.

He knows that what he just did saved Danny from being stabbed. It’s possible he saved his life. Without Will’s intervention, without that note, Danny would be in serious trouble right now.

‘I fucking hate you, Will. You fucking gay boy! A man fights!’ Danny thumps the steering wheel. ‘And if he can’t fight, he stands.’

‘I know,’ Will says. ‘Sorry.’

‘At least fucking stand!’

Why doesn’t it feel like I’ve done the right thing? Will wonders. Danny’s escaped largely unscathed. Why do I feel like I didn’t play the hero, when actually I’ve saved his skin? Are you a hero if no one knows what you did?

‘Can you stop the car please?’ April says, looking at neither of them.

‘It’s all right, I’ll drop you home,’ Danny says, his tone suggesting he thinks he’s being magnanimous. He’s driving recklessly: engine screaming, sawing at the wheel, no seat belt.

‘Stop the car,’ she says, firm this time.