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Chapters (60)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Other books by James Goodhand
  4. Dedication
  5. Four’s a Crowd
  6. That Friday Feeling
  7. Work
  8. Customer Service
  9. Starting Over
  10. Sweet Seventeen
  11. Burn, Baby, Burn
  12. A Turn
  13. Go-Between
  14. Joyride
  15. In
  16. Not a Date
  17. Taken Down
  18. Killing Time
  19. Reality
  20. The Long Wait
  21. The Other Side
  22. Dropping In
  23. In the Dark
  24. Blind Alley
  25. Showtime
  26. Straight Through
  27. What Develops
  28. Last Lesson
  29. House of Horrors
  30. Room with a View
  31. Party’s Over
  32. At Sea
  33. Fireworks
  34. The Turning of Tables
  35. Home Time
  36. Our Little Chats
  37. Out of the Blue?
  38. No Capes
  39. Holding On
  40. Salvage
  41. The End
  42. On a Promise
  43. Disco Inferno
  44. Lockdown
  45. Will Parks’ Big Moment
  46. The Calm
  47. Last Request
  48. The Storm
  49. All Change
  50. A Narrow Escape
  51. An Inconvenient Delay
  52. No More Fighting
  53. Level Crossing
  54. The Beginning
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Resources
  57. Read more
  58. Read more
  59. 5.11 a.m.
  60. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

It’s been a week now since she was admitted to hospital. She’d been making such good progress up until this morning.

Will has questions. Like, how serious does it have to be to ring someone’s family that early? And, what is a turn for the worse, exactly? He’d ask them if he wasn’t quite so scared of the answers. Another heart attack, that much he knows. And that a procedure is required, with some urgency.

The smell – that was the first thing Will registered when he arrived. Not unpleasant, but different from his previous visits to this side room. He doesn’t want to compare it to the meat counter at the supermarket, but that’s what it puts him in mind of. The scent of a human being reduced to the sum of their working parts.

Will sits beside the bed while his mum stares out of the window with crossed arms. He looks up at the clock and its jerking second hand, and wishes he could hold it still, make these five minutes last until he’s ready to let go of Nain’s arm and let her be ‘taken down’ – another phrase he’s not certain of the meaning of.

Danny is at the other side of the bed, leaning on the guard rail. Nain lays a hand on the cling film wrapped round his forearm.

‘What have you done to yourself?’ she asks. The question leaves her two words at a time.

‘His first tattoo,’ their mum almost shouts, despite there being nothing wrong with Nain’s hearing. ‘Couldn’t quite wait the three weeks till he’s eighteen.’

‘Can I see?’ Nain says into her mask, her eyes twinkling with excitement.

Danny peels away the film as though he’s unreeling an ancient scroll, revealing six symbols along his lower arm, the ink shiny and swollen and framed with red-raw skin.

Nain shakily grips his wrist. ‘Fascinating.’ She gathers her strength after so many syllables. ‘Tell me what it means.’

Danny shrugs. ‘Don’t really know. It’s Chinese writing, I think.’

Nain snatches a deep breath and pulls the mask aside. ‘What made you decide on it?’

‘The tattoo guy had this book. Found a design I liked.’

She takes a moment to appreciate it, her translucent fingertips hovering over the symbols.

Danny enjoys the attention, his expression bordering on smug. ‘You love it, don’t you, Mum?’ he asks.

‘I should probably be angry,’ his mum says, ‘but, yes, it’s very cool.’

‘She wants to get the same one,’ Danny tells Nain.

‘I only said maybe,’ his mum says.

Nain turns her head and smiles at Will. He can’t be sure, but it seems like a tiny snigger, a minute rolling of the eyes, a sharing of a private joke.