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Chapters (60)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Other books by James Goodhand
  4. Dedication
  5. Four’s a Crowd
  6. That Friday Feeling
  7. Work
  8. Customer Service
  9. Starting Over
  10. Sweet Seventeen
  11. Burn, Baby, Burn
  12. A Turn
  13. Go-Between
  14. Joyride
  15. In
  16. Not a Date
  17. Taken Down
  18. Killing Time
  19. Reality
  20. The Long Wait
  21. The Other Side
  22. Dropping In
  23. In the Dark
  24. Blind Alley
  25. Showtime
  26. Straight Through
  27. What Develops
  28. Last Lesson
  29. House of Horrors
  30. Room with a View
  31. Party’s Over
  32. At Sea
  33. Fireworks
  34. The Turning of Tables
  35. Home Time
  36. Our Little Chats
  37. Out of the Blue?
  38. No Capes
  39. Holding On
  40. Salvage
  41. The End
  42. On a Promise
  43. Disco Inferno
  44. Lockdown
  45. Will Parks’ Big Moment
  46. The Calm
  47. Last Request
  48. The Storm
  49. All Change
  50. A Narrow Escape
  51. An Inconvenient Delay
  52. No More Fighting
  53. Level Crossing
  54. The Beginning
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Resources
  57. Read more
  58. Read more
  59. 5.11 a.m.
  60. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

He bunked the afternoon’s lessons and got the bus straight over. It’s not the first time this has happened, of course. And she’s always made it home again, even if she is invariably set back from where she was before.

The door to the room next to Nain’s opens and a woman in a blue top with a white band at the neck steps out, followed by an elderly man. She clutches a bible in one hand and holds his shoulder with the other. The stooped old guy thanks her and makes the sign of the cross on his chest.

‘Be lovely to believe in something, wouldn’t it?’ Will’s mum says quietly.

‘S’pose.’

‘Times like these. Must make things so much … easier. Nicer.’

The chaplain smiles at each of them in turn as she walks away.

‘Maybe,’ Will mumbles.

He’d been planning to go round to Nain’s tonight. Extra shifts at Smugglers have kept him away all week, but he needs to talk to her.

The next morning, there had seemed something almost unreal about the day the library burned. Will found it somehow necessary to take a walk there and survey the damage. He was faced with mounds of bricks and hunks of timber blackened like coal. The sour stench of water-logged carbon could be smelt for several streets. The scene gave Will two things: the chance to take the post-apocalyptic photos he’d missed out on the day before, and confirmation he hadn’t completely lost the plot.

He got to thinking about an article he’d come across some time ago about déjà vu. Scientists, Will had read, are unable to agree on what causes it, but a popular theory is that the brain gets its wiring muddled up for a split second and sends information to the wrong place – the part of the brain where memory is stored, instead of the place where current situations are processed. In an instant, the wiring error is corrected, but already a memory has been formed that is identical to what is being processed as the now, hence that spooky certainty that an exact experience has happened before.

Is that what happened? Will began to wonder. Did I really have that conversation with Nain? Or have I built some embellished memory that’s mixed up with things that have happened since?

As he walked back from the ruins of the library, he knew who he had to ask. It was mid-afternoon before Danny’s bedroom door was propped open. Will invited himself in. The room smelt of sex – cheap fragrances evaporated from hot skin, with an underlying hint of something salty. Barely five minutes earlier, a girl had left. Not April – Will was sure of that, having peeked under the door to check during the small hours.

‘You know when Nain came round the other day?’ Will asked. His voice was nervous. ‘My birthday, you know?’