Back Man Down
Chapters (60)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Other books by James Goodhand
  4. Dedication
  5. Four’s a Crowd
  6. That Friday Feeling
  7. Work
  8. Customer Service
  9. Starting Over
  10. Sweet Seventeen
  11. Burn, Baby, Burn
  12. A Turn
  13. Go-Between
  14. Joyride
  15. In
  16. Not a Date
  17. Taken Down
  18. Killing Time
  19. Reality
  20. The Long Wait
  21. The Other Side
  22. Dropping In
  23. In the Dark
  24. Blind Alley
  25. Showtime
  26. Straight Through
  27. What Develops
  28. Last Lesson
  29. House of Horrors
  30. Room with a View
  31. Party’s Over
  32. At Sea
  33. Fireworks
  34. The Turning of Tables
  35. Home Time
  36. Our Little Chats
  37. Out of the Blue?
  38. No Capes
  39. Holding On
  40. Salvage
  41. The End
  42. On a Promise
  43. Disco Inferno
  44. Lockdown
  45. Will Parks’ Big Moment
  46. The Calm
  47. Last Request
  48. The Storm
  49. All Change
  50. A Narrow Escape
  51. An Inconvenient Delay
  52. No More Fighting
  53. Level Crossing
  54. The Beginning
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Resources
  57. Read more
  58. Read more
  59. 5.11 a.m.
  60. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

‘They’d have to be outside the physical constraints of themselves.’

‘Right.’

‘As we all will be. Eventually. It’s one of the very few certainties of life, in fact.’

If he were in the cold light of day, if other people were around, Will would probably have laughed her implication off. But in this dimly lit room, with just this utterly compelling woman, after all the many strange occurrences that have led him here, he feels a fizzing in his veins. These things may sound crazy, but they feel like truth.

‘With me?’ she asks.

‘I think I am.’ There’s heat in his eyes. ‘Lots of people see ghosts, don’t they? It’s not even that unusual, is it?’

But he can’t voice the question that this acceptance leads him to: why me? What do they want with me?

‘You’ve maybe made a leap there that you don’t need to.’

‘You are talking about ghosts, right?’

‘I’m not sure I am.’

‘So what are you talking about?’

‘Something far less supernatural, that’s for sure. We’re talking about a conscious state that is well understood by science.’

‘By which you mean death?’

‘Aha! No, Will! That’s the leap too far. Not death. Dying. The strange business of dying.’

‘Is it a strange business?’

‘The very strangest, Will.’ A shadow falls over her face. ‘When you’ve been with someone as they die, you realize what a complex thing death is. It’s not like a machine switching off, I promise you. Everything that life means, gone in a few moments of oxygen starvation? Does that seem right to you? Does it feel right?’

‘I suppose not.’

‘One day you’ll perhaps find yourself holding someone’s hand as they go. You’ll see what I mean.’

Will can’t help but think of Nain and the turn for the worse she’s taken these last couple of days; barely able to leave her chair, memory shot to bits.

‘You OK?’ Ms Calloway whispers.

Will dismisses the thought. ‘So what is it that happens when someone dies? What happens to this consciousness?’

‘Gosh, you’re hitting me with some terrifically huge questions, Will! I don’t think anyone can answer that with any authority. But there are good theories.’

‘Like?’

‘Firstly, let’s take a moment to appreciate that there is no “moment of death” as such. Things stop at different times – the heart, the lungs. The digestive system, for example, carries on doing its thing at a molecular level for weeks. But what concerns us here is conscious thought.’

‘The brain.’

‘Exactly. The mind. Thought; imagination; perception – when do these things stop?’

‘No clue.’