Back Loudermilk
Chapters (60)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Personae
  4. I: Early Days
  5. One. Control
  6. Two. Doubt
  7. Three. Fate
  8. Four. Same
  9. Five. Fine Arts
  10. Six. In Loco Parentis
  11. Seven. Settling
  12. Eight. Neighbors
  13. Nine. Prospects
  14. Ten. The Lucky
  15. Eleven. Instruction
  16. Twelve. Same
  17. Thirteen. This Is a Pipe
  18. Fourteen. This Is Not a Pipe
  19. Fifteen. The Reason
  20. Sixteen. That Person
  21. Seventeen. Predictably
  22. II: Writing Teacher
  23. Eighteen. Early Poems
  24. Nineteen. Motivation
  25. Twenty. Allegory
  26. Twenty-One. Grief
  27. Twenty-Two. A Portrait
  28. Twenty-Three. Veils
  29. Twenty-Four. Soft Power
  30. Twenty-Five. Lists
  31. Twenty-Six. A Break
  32. Twenty-Seven. Elsewhere
  33. Twenty-Eight. Custom
  34. Twenty-Nine. Parity
  35. Thirty. Fortune
  36. III: Volta
  37. Thirty-One. Images
  38. Thirty-Two. A Very Interesting Young Man
  39. Thirty-Three. Letters
  40. Thirty-Four. We Prefer to See Ourselves Living
  41. Thirty-Five. Love
  42. Thirty-Six. The Iceberg
  43. IV: Your Best Reader
  44. Thirty-Seven. A Novelist
  45. Thirty-Eight. In Advance of the Broken Arm
  46. Thirty-Nine. Their Penultimate Encounter
  47. Forty. Détente
  48. Forty-One. Worlds
  49. Forty-Two. Recognition
  50. Forty-Three. Persistence
  51. Forty-Four. And Then
  52. Forty-Five. Mingling
  53. Forty-Six. You
  54. Forty-Seven. Persona
  55. Forty-Eight. Est et Non
  56. Forty-Nine. The Author
  57. Epilogue
  58. Afterword: The Libertine
  59. Acknowledgments
  60. About the Authors

Harry pretends he hasn’t heard this last remark. He moves on to a photograph of Kobe Bryant.

Loudermilk is pulling on a pair of ratty, toffee-colored cargo shorts, to which he adds a white polo. He swipes Old Spice. He strokes his chin, contemplating Harry. “To the mall?”

“See you when you get back.”

Loudermilk is firm. He says, “Those Orange Juliuses aren’t going to drink themselves, friend.”

“I don’t feel like it.”

“But, Harry”—Loudermilk employs humanitarian tones—“trying new things is how we learn.”

“Thanks but no thanks.”

“Remember how I’m supposed to be helping you here? Working on your little problem? Can you please just let me do that?”

Harry frowns.

Loudermilk drives.

They go by cornfields, and there is a sound from insects like a low alarm. There looms THE REDVILLE MALL. Contractors have fixed for it a treeless, dusty plateau.

Loudermilk wants a mattress and linens and an Orange Julius and some panfried dumplings and is getting sort of manic. They move among hearty Alpines and a few Nordics whose genetic traits, Loudermilk loudly proclaims, as if in a bid to have his front teeth abruptly removed by a nearby fist, have been largely selected out of the East Coast pool.

Loudermilk buys red towels; he buys five, all the same jumbo size. Loudermilk buys navy sheets. He buys two mattresses. He makes Harry go with him to the sporting goods store, where he lights on a pair of plastic camp chairs with built-in beer cozies. They peruse the handgun options and watch as someone with acne receives a miniature duffel across the glass counter.

“You see, the mall is good,” Loudermilk says. “Look how Zen you are.”

Harry is pouring the last sweet kernels of a cone of kettle corn into his mouth. He does not respond. They turn into an electronics store where Loudermilk picks out a pair of midrange handheld recorders that take mini-tapes. “For when I go to class—one for recording, one for you to listen,” he tells Harry, indicating that the fancier, digital recorder he already possesses will be reserved for personal use. Loudermilk picks up a cordless for the house and a Sprint PCS Picture Phone with Built-in Camera for himself. He shakes hands with the salesman.

Near a giant glass atrium that is the main point of entry and exit, on the concrete dais outside, are girls in black jeans and Doc Martens who smoke cigarettes, squatting and jumping and gesticulating all the while, as if it is a form of calisthenics. The girls are in high school and Harry supposes you could believe they have been released from their place of remedial education for the day. They wear band shirts and fistfuls of silver rings and train knowing, kohl-lined eyes on Loudermilk. One leans over and whispers something to another. The other girl laughs, levers herself off the wall. She starts speed-walking toward Harry and Loudermilk.