Back Loudermilk
Chapters (60)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Personae
  4. I: Early Days
  5. One. Control
  6. Two. Doubt
  7. Three. Fate
  8. Four. Same
  9. Five. Fine Arts
  10. Six. In Loco Parentis
  11. Seven. Settling
  12. Eight. Neighbors
  13. Nine. Prospects
  14. Ten. The Lucky
  15. Eleven. Instruction
  16. Twelve. Same
  17. Thirteen. This Is a Pipe
  18. Fourteen. This Is Not a Pipe
  19. Fifteen. The Reason
  20. Sixteen. That Person
  21. Seventeen. Predictably
  22. II: Writing Teacher
  23. Eighteen. Early Poems
  24. Nineteen. Motivation
  25. Twenty. Allegory
  26. Twenty-One. Grief
  27. Twenty-Two. A Portrait
  28. Twenty-Three. Veils
  29. Twenty-Four. Soft Power
  30. Twenty-Five. Lists
  31. Twenty-Six. A Break
  32. Twenty-Seven. Elsewhere
  33. Twenty-Eight. Custom
  34. Twenty-Nine. Parity
  35. Thirty. Fortune
  36. III: Volta
  37. Thirty-One. Images
  38. Thirty-Two. A Very Interesting Young Man
  39. Thirty-Three. Letters
  40. Thirty-Four. We Prefer to See Ourselves Living
  41. Thirty-Five. Love
  42. Thirty-Six. The Iceberg
  43. IV: Your Best Reader
  44. Thirty-Seven. A Novelist
  45. Thirty-Eight. In Advance of the Broken Arm
  46. Thirty-Nine. Their Penultimate Encounter
  47. Forty. Détente
  48. Forty-One. Worlds
  49. Forty-Two. Recognition
  50. Forty-Three. Persistence
  51. Forty-Four. And Then
  52. Forty-Five. Mingling
  53. Forty-Six. You
  54. Forty-Seven. Persona
  55. Forty-Eight. Est et Non
  56. Forty-Nine. The Author
  57. Epilogue
  58. Afterword: The Libertine
  59. Acknowledgments
  60. About the Authors

Harry’s impressed by the enthusiasm of the shirtless for beer at this hour. A person comes out of the house behind them with a BB gun. It has a bright orange muzzle and is instantly trained on everyone. “Liquor run!” the gunman bellows. He points the rifle at one person, then another, then a third. Target number 3 flinches. The barrel drops, and there is a clapping sound as its mechanism is discharged in the direction of feet in massage sandals.

“Goddamn!” the target squeals, hopping back. He’s wearing a white visor and attempts to tug it down, in order that it serve as a makeshift face shield. “Goddamn it!” The visor wearer tumbles awkwardly as the gunman marches purposefully down the lawn and takes aim once more.

“It’s time for a liquor run,” the gunman intones.

Other beanbag participants are getting out of the way, forming a handy chorus. One of them obligingly chants, “Lick or run! Lick or run!”

“Everybody get ready,” the gunman announces.

“Nooooo,” the visor moans. “C’mon guys!” His breasts jiggle.

“Everybody get set,” the gunman continues. “You have a count of five on my signal, bitch.”

The visor gulps and moans once more, but he orients his body in the proper direction.

“Now,” quoth the gunman, “GO!”

The visor takes off, rubber soles slapping desperately against the pavement. Those on the lawn begin a count: “ONE, TWO, THREE.” Here the running boy’s hands are lowered to cradle his balls. “FOUR.” The gunman hops into the street, plants his feet, squares his shoulders: “FIVE!”

There is a popping noise, a keening yowl. The visor hobbles on. The gunman is furiously pumping his weapon. When he takes aim again Harry sees the gunman’s chest heaving, from exertion or excitement, Harry is not sure which, and the visor drops, windmilling like someone on ice.

“Got him in his thigh,” the gunman judges, lowering his weapon. He moves down the street toward the wounded boy, rifle slung carelessly over one shoulder, a hunter spent.

The crew on the lawn descends. They approach the trembling, desperately self-examining form in the road.

The gunman says, “Someone get him in the house. I’ll take my truck.” The gunman tousles the hair of the injured party, whom others bear away. The gunman crosses the street, now scratching his shoulder blades with the inverted gun barrel.

The gunman approaches Harry. He wears an undershirt and a simple necklace of wooden beads. He glistens with sweat, all the way out to the tips of his black hair. He assesses Harry.

“What are you looking at?” the gunman wants to know, and without waiting for a reply gets into a new truck, parked just a few spaces up and painted a metallic green like the head of a mallard.

Harry watches this person drive off. He recalls, from a dreary senior-year Freud survey, that the sadist is both the source of the law and the one who transgresses it.