Contents (117)
- Jailbird
- Caro Savage
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
- Chapter 75
- Chapter 76
- Chapter 77
- Chapter 78
- Chapter 79
- Chapter 80
- Chapter 81
- Chapter 82
- Chapter 83
- Chapter 84
- Chapter 85
- Chapter 86
- Chapter 87
- Chapter 88
- Chapter 89
- Chapter 90
- Chapter 91
- Chapter 92
- Chapter 93
- Chapter 94
- Chapter 95
- Chapter 96
- Chapter 97
- Chapter 98
- Chapter 99
- Chapter 100
- Chapter 101
- Chapter 102
- Chapter 103
- Chapter 104
- Chapter 105
- Chapter 106
- Chapter 107
- Chapter 108
- Chapter 109
- Chapter 110
- Chapter 111
- Acknowledgments
- More from Caro Savage
- About the Author
- About Boldwood Books
But first things first. He smiled at her.
‘Have you done your homework?’
She frowned in puzzlement.
‘Your thought diary?’ he said.
‘Oh that. Sorry, I completely forgot about it.’
He sighed. This didn’t come as a total surprise to him.
‘Like I said in our previous meeting, Bailey, if you want to get better, then you have to want to help yourself.’
‘I’m sorry, Doctor. It genuinely slipped my mind. I got sidetracked with some other stuff.’
He gestured at the sheets of paper on the table in front of him. ‘These are the tests you did last time you were here. Remember? The results are quite revealing.’
‘Revealing?’ A wary look.
‘Yes,’ he said. ‘You were referred to me because you threw yourself off a balcony. An attempt at suicide or self-harm tells me that you’re clearly troubled in some way. Looking at your test results, I’m wondering if this is down to a traumatic experience which happened to you in the past.’
He saw a flash of something in her eyes. Raw emotion. Pain. Fear. But then, just as quickly, it was gone, the grey eyes staring at him cool and calm once again.
‘You can tell that just from this test?’ she said, a sceptical tone in her voice.
In truth, he didn’t need a test to know that something unpleasant was locked up inside that head of hers. With her mannerisms and her scar, which he guessed was the outcome of some violent encounter, it was hardly an outlandish assumption to make. And with almost twenty years’ experience as a forensic psychologist he had become particularly attuned to reading people like her.
‘Would you like to talk about it?’ he asked.
‘Not particularly.’
‘Traumatic experiences, if unaddressed, can be the cause of major mental health issues. They can lead to suicide attempts, self-harm and other highly detrimental behaviour.’ He paused. ‘Have you heard of something called post-traumatic stress disorder?’
She nodded and looked away.
‘When we undergo a particularly traumatic experience, the mind can compartmentalise that experience. It’s like a defence mechanism in order to help us preserve a functional sense of self and prevent emotionally unacceptable material from entering our consciousness. But because those memories aren’t properly integrated, they’re not anchored in any context of time or place like normal memories are. That means that when they intrude, which can happen quite suddenly, it feels like—’
‘Like they’re happening right now,’ she said in a quiet voice. ‘Like you’re re-living them. Like you’re actually there all over again, seeing the same things, feeling the same feelings, smelling the same smells.’
Excitement gripped him. At last, he was getting somewhere! He had finally broken through that defensive shell of hers.
‘Yes, Bailey! That’s precisely it! I’m so glad you understand what I’m saying. You see, talking about it, although it might be painful, can help to reintegrate those traumatic memories into your consciousness and thus get rid of those unpleasant intrusions.’
He saw the shutters come down – a tautening in her jaw muscles, a sudden frostiness in her eyes.