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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Upon Seeking Tu Fu as a Guide
  5. To My Reader
  6. Enduring Suffering
  7. God, Self, and Medicine
  8. Willfulness
  9. In Voices Half as Loud
  10. Tu Fu’s Reappearance
  11. Without Notice
  12. The Waiting Room
  13. Endgame
  14. Questions to Walk With
  15. A Terrible Knowledge
  16. October Storm
  17. Post-Op
  18. Setting Fires in the Rain
  19. The Decision for Therapy
  20. Questions to Walk With
  21. Ocean of Sky
  22. For My Brother
  23. Covenant with Time
  24. As Rachel Wakes
  25. Dance of the Seed
  26. A Sacred Meditation
  27. Questions to Walk With
  28. Messenger Signs
  29. Where We Are Strong
  30. As If to Say
  31. Finding a Way Out
  32. Questions to Walk With
  33. Approaching Wholeness
  34. Troubled Waters
  35. Knowing God
  36. The Garage
  37. Living with the Wound
  38. Questions to Walk With
  39. Mind Sweats
  40. First Treatment
  41. Cradlesong
  42. Lifesong with Two Trumpets
  43. Letter Home
  44. Who Will Live Your Life?
  45. Questions to Walk With
  46. Midway in Our Journey
  47. Magnificence
  48. Another Chance
  49. Nesting
  50. I Have Not Forgotten
  51. On My Way
  52. Questions to Walk With
  53. Facing the River
  54. Being Human
  55. As Moonlight
  56. In the Back of the Eye
  57. In the Sea of Others
  58. Moonglow
  59. Chores
  60. Questions to Walk With
  61. Still Here, Still Wondering
  62. Unraveling the Self
  63. Cracked or Healing
  64. For Nur
  65. Love-Sufferings
  66. Soft as Satisfaction
  67. Letting Go
  68. Inside the Miracle
  69. Questions to Walk With
  70. Sifting Truth
  71. Susan Means Lily
  72. Sitting Near a Smoke Bush
  73. Sniffing For You
  74. Forged
  75. It
  76. Surviving Has Made Me Crazy
  77. For That
  78. Questions to Walk With
  79. Flint Work
  80. Entering Our Tenth Year
  81. Coming of Age
  82. After Mira
  83. Still
  84. What Can I Do?
  85. Love Your Window
  86. Hourglass
  87. Questions to Walk With
  88. The Bridge of Well-Being
  89. Adrift
  90. The Beauty of Less
  91. Between the Wall and the Flame
  92. Eventually
  93. Thrown Back
  94. The Slow Arm of All That Matters
  95. The Thin Magic
  96. In the Sky of Heart
  97. The Sway of It All
  98. Gratitudes
  99. Notes
  100. Permissions
  101. About the Author
  102. Also by the Author
  103. About Sounds True

With all this in mind, I’m moved to offer the notion that great work is an expression in which the author or artist or expresser is changed for having expressed it, is transformed for having encountered and released it. If and when this happens, it’s inevitable that the work will be of use to others, in the same way that fire gives off heat.

So, you see, a funny thing happened on the way to surviving cancer. Without my permission, and with no decision on my part, my way of being as a writer was transformed. I woke on the other side, no longer driven to create something that never existed, but drawn now to bear witness to what has always been. I realized I’d been a make-aholic, a creative, even talented ball of energy whose worth depended on doing. But when I found myself awake in the struggle of a spirit expressing its trail, I began to find my worth in being. I had begun the shift from a life of achievement to a life of expression.

At first, without my drive, I feared I had lost my creativity. But over time, I came to understand that as a turbulent river finds its way to the sea, I had lost some of my noise and force, but had found more of my calm and depth.

From this unexpected depth, all my endeavors appeared to be connected. Both the artist in me and the spirit in me were finding expression through each other. By writing about others, I could learn about myself. Then, by writing about myself, I could learn about others or the other way around. Now, it seems that characters and voices and aspects of the self are just lenses for unfolding the mysteries of life. For characters are just extensions of self, known and unknown, and each face of self is just another character. Fiction, poetry, nonfiction: I’m coming to see that all the genres are just different brushes used on the same canvas.

Ultimately, my experience as a poet and a cancer survivor forced me to enlarge the notion of autobiography to encompass an ongoing dialogue with the dynamic Oneness of Life from which we keep learning what our particular contribution is to be in our time on Earth.

Whether we’re exploring the lives of so-called fictional characters, or whether we’re giving expression to the fabric of our suffering in so-called nonfiction, or whether we’re plucking the harp strings of the inner world in the music of our poems—in each effort, we’re adding to the emerging myth of our people, drinking from the same common well at center that has fed every generation.