Chapters (103)
- Cover
- Title
- Dedication
- Upon Seeking Tu Fu as a Guide
- To My Reader
- Enduring Suffering
- God, Self, and Medicine
- Willfulness
- In Voices Half as Loud
- Tu Fu’s Reappearance
- Without Notice
- The Waiting Room
- Endgame
- Questions to Walk With
- A Terrible Knowledge
- October Storm
- Post-Op
- Setting Fires in the Rain
- The Decision for Therapy
- Questions to Walk With
- Ocean of Sky
- For My Brother
- Covenant with Time
- As Rachel Wakes
- Dance of the Seed
- A Sacred Meditation
- Questions to Walk With
- Messenger Signs
- Where We Are Strong
- As If to Say
- Finding a Way Out
- Questions to Walk With
- Approaching Wholeness
- Troubled Waters
- Knowing God
- The Garage
- Living with the Wound
- Questions to Walk With
- Mind Sweats
- First Treatment
- Cradlesong
- Lifesong with Two Trumpets
- Letter Home
- Who Will Live Your Life?
- Questions to Walk With
- Midway in Our Journey
- Magnificence
- Another Chance
- Nesting
- I Have Not Forgotten
- On My Way
- Questions to Walk With
- Facing the River
- Being Human
- As Moonlight
- In the Back of the Eye
- In the Sea of Others
- Moonglow
- Chores
- Questions to Walk With
- Still Here, Still Wondering
- Unraveling the Self
- Cracked or Healing
- For Nur
- Love-Sufferings
- Soft as Satisfaction
- Letting Go
- Inside the Miracle
- Questions to Walk With
- Sifting Truth
- Susan Means Lily
- Sitting Near a Smoke Bush
- Sniffing For You
- Forged
- It
- Surviving Has Made Me Crazy
- For That
- Questions to Walk With
- Flint Work
- Entering Our Tenth Year
- Coming of Age
- After Mira
- Still
- What Can I Do?
- Love Your Window
- Hourglass
- Questions to Walk With
- The Bridge of Well-Being
- Adrift
- The Beauty of Less
- Between the Wall and the Flame
- Eventually
- Thrown Back
- The Slow Arm of All That Matters
- The Thin Magic
- In the Sky of Heart
- The Sway of It All
- Gratitudes
- Notes
- Permissions
- About the Author
- Also by the Author
- About Sounds True
With all this in mind, I’m moved to offer the notion that great work is an expression in which the author or artist or expresser is changed for having expressed it, is transformed for having encountered and released it. If and when this happens, it’s inevitable that the work will be of use to others, in the same way that fire gives off heat.
So, you see, a funny thing happened on the way to surviving cancer. Without my permission, and with no decision on my part, my way of being as a writer was transformed. I woke on the other side, no longer driven to create something that never existed, but drawn now to bear witness to what has always been. I realized I’d been a make-aholic, a creative, even talented ball of energy whose worth depended on doing. But when I found myself awake in the struggle of a spirit expressing its trail, I began to find my worth in being. I had begun the shift from a life of achievement to a life of expression.
At first, without my drive, I feared I had lost my creativity. But over time, I came to understand that as a turbulent river finds its way to the sea, I had lost some of my noise and force, but had found more of my calm and depth.
From this unexpected depth, all my endeavors appeared to be connected. Both the artist in me and the spirit in me were finding expression through each other. By writing about others, I could learn about myself. Then, by writing about myself, I could learn about others or the other way around. Now, it seems that characters and voices and aspects of the self are just lenses for unfolding the mysteries of life. For characters are just extensions of self, known and unknown, and each face of self is just another character. Fiction, poetry, nonfiction: I’m coming to see that all the genres are just different brushes used on the same canvas.
Ultimately, my experience as a poet and a cancer survivor forced me to enlarge the notion of autobiography to encompass an ongoing dialogue with the dynamic Oneness of Life from which we keep learning what our particular contribution is to be in our time on Earth.
Whether we’re exploring the lives of so-called fictional characters, or whether we’re giving expression to the fabric of our suffering in so-called nonfiction, or whether we’re plucking the harp strings of the inner world in the music of our poems—in each effort, we’re adding to the emerging myth of our people, drinking from the same common well at center that has fed every generation.