… but there were dark forces here, too-oo-oo, shadows hiding-ing-ing in the smo … smo … smoke from the barbecue-you-you-you and they were beyond the smoke and in the … and in the … and sometimes they would catch the messages … the love … and the message … the love … would get heav … would get heav … and the light would get darker, but I didn’t want to … to look at them I didn’t want to … to focus on them because the …

… because the party was so wonder-der-der-ful and at the heart of it this great brightness and great movement and … and speed-eed-eed-eed … which turned galaxies of stars into streams of … and it’s so hard to explain with the words-urds-urds of this mouth and this … this lang … langu … langu … place because there are other ways of talking which we can’t even begin to … to dream about and I … oh I didn’t even really care-air-air about the child when she arrived and I suppose there was some-um-um confu … confuse … confusion and some resent-ent-ent-ment but when I saw her, so tiny and so bright on the pebbles with the armfuls of flowers I just … I understood that it had to be-ee-ee-ee exact … just this way, exact … just as it is and I …

… I wondered where Carla was and I … I looked around for her … and I became confused-used-used because she was on the other side of the smoke-oak-oak-oak with the … the … in the heat-eat-eat-eat … in the … but she was … of course she was … wasn’t too close, she was … she was … she was very dis … very dis … far away on the hor … hor … horizon walking with two other people who I couldn’t quite-ite-ite disting … disting … tell … but one was a man who was a word – a pen-en-en-en – and the other was a woman who was a thought-ought-ought-ought and … and the woman drew the messages towards her and then sent them out again like a kind of … of magnet, a magnetic-ic-ic-hic-hic-hic thing I can’t quite describe and she seemed … she seemed powerful-ul-ul-ul but Carla-la-la-lah like a song-ong-ong was … was in the middle … and she was drawn to the light-ight-ight-ight like a … like a butter … a butter … a moth … like a moth which flew into the … flew into the … caught the light on her … on her wings-ings-ings and it came from her and surroun-ound-ound-ded her because I could tell that it was her … confuse … her need … her refuse-use-use-ing-ging-ging … that made it … made her … made it so … so …

… like almost a … a … gulf … a giant … a crack-ack-ack which zig … zig … zig … a can … a can … a canyon-on-on-on which opened up behind … which I thought could … might … might engulf them or … or … or us! … engulf us! … and then it would all be … all forgot … all waste … all … and I …