Chapters (46)
- Cover
- homie
- homie
- Copyright
- note on the title
- my nig
- my president
- niggas!
- how many of us have them?
- jumped!
- saw a video of a gang of bees swarming a hornet who killed their bee-homie so i called to say i love you
- fall poem
- rose
- i’m going back to Minnesota where sadness makes sense
- the flower who bloomed thru the fence in grandmama’s yard
- in lieu of a poem, i’d like to say
- dogs!
- ode to gold teeth
- on faggotness
- self-portrait as ’90s R&B video
- my bitch!
- sometimes i wish i felt the side effects
- say it with your whole black mouth
- shout out to my niggas in Mexico
- white niggas
- what was said at the bus stop
- i didn’t like you when i met you
- for Andrew
- 1989–2016
- depression food
- undetectable
- all the good dick lives in Brooklyn Park
- broke n rice
- C.R.E.A.M.
- old confession & new
- gay cancer
- happy hour
- waiting on you to die so i can be myself
- the fat one with the switch
- my poems
- trees!
- my nig
- notes
- acknowledgments
- more notes & more acknowledgments
- About the Author
at her inauguration & say, the future is now, & we’d all marvel
at the sun & moon looping the sky like a gif as the cars learned
to fly & our skin grew bulletproof
& colin kaepernick is my president, who kneels on the air
bent toward a branch, throwing apples down to the children & vets
& rihanna is my president, walking out of global summits
with wineglass in hand, our taxes returned in gold
to dust our faces into coins
& my mama is my president, her grace stunts
on amazing, brown hands breaking brown bread over
mouths of the hungry until there are none unfed
& my grandma is my president & her cabinet is her cabinet
cause she knows to trust what the pan knows
how the skillet wins the war
& the man i saw high kicking his way down the river?
he is my president
& the trans girl making songs in her closet, spinning the dark
into a booming dress? she too is my president
& shonda rhimes is my president
& nate marshall is my president
& trina is my president
& the boys outside walgreens selling candy
for a possibly fictional basketball team are my presidents
& the bus driver who stops after you yell wait! only twice
is my pres
& the dude at the pizza spot who will give you a free slice
if you are down to wait for him to finish the day’s fourth prayer
is my president
& my auntie, only a few months clean, but clean
she is my president
& my neighbor who holds the door open when my arms
are full of laundry is my president
& every head nod is my president
& every child singing summer with a red sweet tongue is my president
& the birds
& the cooks
& the single moms especially
& the weed dealers
& the teachers
& the meter maid who lets you slide
& the cab drivers who stop
& the nurse’s swollen feet
& the braider’s exhausted hands
& the bartender
& beyoncé
& all her kids
& the rabbi
& the sad girls
& the leather daddy who always stops to say good morning
& the boy crying on the train & the sudden abuela who rubs his back
& the uncle who offers him water & the drag queen who begins to hum
o my presidents!
my presidents!
my presidents!
my presidents!
show me to our nation
my only border is my body
i sing your names
sing your names
your names
my mighty anthem
niggas!
love them two g’s in the middle
hanging down like hands scooping
water from a river pinked by dusk. i love
how it starts in the nose (nig-) then
books it to the back of the mouth
& smacks the soft palate (-gas).
i love the smell of nigga on the tongue
& how it means that which is me
& them niggas over there too. it do my heart
well to think on niggas, lower my cholesterol
when i holler NIGGAS! when i walk
into a room & be nigga’d right back.
nigga every room i enter, i touch