Chapters (46)
- Cover
- homie
- homie
- Copyright
- note on the title
- my nig
- my president
- niggas!
- how many of us have them?
- jumped!
- saw a video of a gang of bees swarming a hornet who killed their bee-homie so i called to say i love you
- fall poem
- rose
- i’m going back to Minnesota where sadness makes sense
- the flower who bloomed thru the fence in grandmama’s yard
- in lieu of a poem, i’d like to say
- dogs!
- ode to gold teeth
- on faggotness
- self-portrait as ’90s R&B video
- my bitch!
- sometimes i wish i felt the side effects
- say it with your whole black mouth
- shout out to my niggas in Mexico
- white niggas
- what was said at the bus stop
- i didn’t like you when i met you
- for Andrew
- 1989–2016
- depression food
- undetectable
- all the good dick lives in Brooklyn Park
- broke n rice
- C.R.E.A.M.
- old confession & new
- gay cancer
- happy hour
- waiting on you to die so i can be myself
- the fat one with the switch
- my poems
- trees!
- my nig
- notes
- acknowledgments
- more notes & more acknowledgments
- About the Author
all y’all come quick! i’m sorry to use whole damn continents
& shit to sum up the diasporas within our diasporas
i’m just trying to get the word out! we got a jam going!
bring ya folks! bring whatever your mama considers gospel.
not the text, but the feeling. tell me what song is likely on
when our mother finds herself on the floor, weeping
beckoning whoever lurks behind the sky.
we’ll play that loud. look! our fathers have found each other
in each other, they’re over yonder teaching each other
what they know to do with dominos, trading curse words
like fourth graders with too much language & no supervision.
we got time! this could go for a moon or two! they said the fish
is gonna take until tomorrow. the lamb longer. the rice is ready tho.
we got some more chairs in the basement. upstairs a room
for crying. a room for prayer. somebody girlfriend
doing tarot over there. look at our nieces jumping into stars!
come on niggas! is there a nigga in Antarctica? her too!
any place where they came & handed out new names
come. come on, niggas! i know the word is complicated
but it’s my favorite word! we’ll talk about it later.
& yes. yes, it’s intentional.
they were never invited.
white niggas
your narrative & my narrative go behind the house
& just have it out for once. one lunges with a shiv
the lunged-at pulls it into place. they know the choreo
of this marriage, their good-time war. i understand
the shape of it: we don’t read the same articles, don’t
consider the same things knowledge, don’t believe in
the same god in the same way. i get it. we know little
similar, sure, the joy of a good piss, the smell
of fresh-cut lemon, the feeling of making it home
alive. now, if i am trying to avoid you to stay alive
& you are trying to avoid me to stay alive, what is that
the definition of? all this blood & still no truce.
my adopted twin, we’ve been at it for years
you run around scared of the idea of me, i run away
from your actual you with your actual instruments
of my end: badge, bullet, post, gas, rope, opinion.
you have murdered me for centuries & still i fix
my mouth to say love is possible. it is. it is? if you
come to my door thirsty, i’ll turn the faucet & fill
the glass. if i come to your stoop, don’t shoot.
what was said at the bus stop
lately has been a long time
says the girl from Pakistan, Lahore to be specific
at the bus stop when the white man
ask her where she’s from & then
says oh, you from Lahore?
it’s pretty bad over there lately.
lately has been a long time
she says & we look at each other & the look says