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Chapters (98)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Chapter One
  4. Chapter Two
  5. Illustrated London News, Saturday, 1 April 1865
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Illustrated London News, Friday, 21 July 1865
  12. Princess Louise to Lady Margaret
  13. Lady Victoria to Lady Margaret
  14. Donald Cameron of Lochiel to Lady Margaret
  15. Princess Louise to Lady Margaret
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Telegram from the Duke of Buccleuch to Lady Margaret
  18. The Morning Post, Saturday, 23 December 1865
  19. Chapter Nine
  20. Chapter Ten
  21. Chapter Eleven
  22. The Illustrated Times, Friday, 16 February 1866
  23. Chapter Twelve
  24. Chapter Thirteen
  25. Chapter Fourteen
  26. Chapter Fifteen
  27. Illustrated London News, Saturday, 21 April 1866
  28. Chapter Sixteen
  29. Princess Louise to Lady Margaret
  30. Chapter Seventeen
  31. Chapter Eighteen
  32. Chapter Nineteen
  33. Susannah Elmhirst to Lady Margaret
  34. The Morning Post, Thursday, 28 June 1866
  35. Chapter Twenty
  36. Chapter Twenty-One
  37. Charlotte, Duchess of Buccleuch, to Lady Margaret
  38. Chapter Twenty-Two
  39. Princess Louise to Lady Margaret
  40. Chapter Twenty-Three
  41. Susannah Elmhirst to Lady Margaret
  42. Lady Margaret to Susannah Elmhirst
  43. Chapter Twenty-Four
  44. Donald Cameron of Lochiel to Lady Margaret
  45. Lady Margaret to Donald Cameron of Lochiel
  46. Chapter Twenty-Five
  47. Lady Victoria Kerr to Lady Margaret
  48. Donald Cameron of Lochiel to Lady Margaret
  49. Lady Margaret to Donald Cameron of Lochiel
  50. Chapter Twenty-Six
  51. Susannah Elmhirst to Lady Margaret
  52. Donald Cameron of Lochiel to Lady Margaret
  53. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  54. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  55. Charlotte, Duchess of Buccleuch, to Lady Margaret
  56. Princess Louise to Lady Margaret
  57. The Illustrated Times, Friday, 20 December 1867
  58. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  59. Chapter Thirty
  60. New York Times, Tuesday, 7 January 1868
  61. New York Herald, Wednesday, 8 January 1868
  62. Chapter Thirty-One
  63. Chapter Thirty-Two
  64. New York Herald, Tuesday, 21 January 1868
  65. Chapter Thirty-Three
  66. Chapter Thirty-Four
  67. Demorest’s Monthly Magazine, April 1868
  68. Lady Margaret to Lady Victoria Kerr
  69. Lady Margaret to Julia, Viscountess Powerscourt
  70. Harper’s Bazar, Monday, 2 November 1868
  71. Chapter Thirty-Five
  72. Susannah Elmhirst to Lady Margaret
  73. Chapter Thirty-Six
  74. New York Herald, Thursday, 18 March 1869
  75. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  76. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  77. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  78. Charlotte, Duchess of Buccleuch, to Lady Margaret
  79. Julia, Viscountess Powerscourt, to Lady Margaret
  80. The Revolution, Wednesday, 20 April 1870
  81. Chapter Forty
  82. Chapter Forty-One
  83. Princess Louise to Lady Margaret
  84. Susannah Elmhirst to Lady Margaret
  85. New York Herald, Wednesday, 11 October 1871
  86. Chapter Forty-Two
  87. Demorest’s Monthly Magazine, March 1873
  88. Chapter Forty-Three
  89. Chapter Forty-Four
  90. The Scotsman, Friday, 10 December 1875
  91. Epilogue
  92. Author’s Note
  93. Historical Note
  94. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  95. About the Author
  96. About the Book
  97. Read On
  98. About the Publisher

She walked down the main street, past the shuttered tollbooth and the busy Cross Keys Hotel, on past the Corn Exchange, shuddering involuntarily at the spot marking the site of the last public hanging there. At the railway station on the outskirts of town, which her father had steered through an Act of Parliament to construct, she huddled for shelter in the doorway of the ticket booth.

If she didn’t marry at all, she was destined to become what Louise feared most, the family hausfrau, as she called it. A maiden aunt, at the beck and call of her brothers and sisters and their offspring, shunted from pillar to post as required. She would be a perpetual guest in others’ homes, expected to be nothing but dutiful and grateful until the end of her days.

Exasperated, she scooped a handful of snow into a ball and hurled it across the tracks. What she wanted was to stop the questions endlessly circling around and around in her head. What she wanted was to prove to her parents that she was indeed fit for purpose, not a selfish, feckless child.

Could she play the role expected of her, as Rufus Ponsonby’s wife? She could never love him, but love wasn’t part of the bargain. You must resist the urge to let your heart steer your actions. Louise’s words had stung, but she was right. Margaret should be asking herself whether she could learn to respect him, to hold him in some sort of affection. Every instinct screamed a resounding no, but look where her instincts had landed her.

Duty involved sacrifice and hard work. Her sister had successfully managed it, albeit, in Victoria’s own words, with a determined effort. If she could find the strength of character to emulate her sister, she would be redeemed in everyone’s eyes. And if she was fortunate, she would be rewarded, as Victoria was about to be, with a family of her own, even if she cringed to think how that family would come about.

If Victoria wasn’t example enough, she could look to Louise. Bored senseless, deprived of her friends, denied a proper debut, forced to listen to the queen’s endless lamentations and outpourings of grief, Louise did so with such grace and restraint that her mother believed she relished the task. Lou vented her feelings in her letters to Margaret, and she enjoyed her own, private little acts of rebellion, but she was otherwise a stoic.

Yes, Louise was the example she would follow. She would accept her place in the world, and she would make the best of it. She would have to wrap her heart in chains, suppress her true self in order to do so, but she would do it.