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  1. PHILIPPA GREGORY
  2. April 1603
  3. April 1603
  4. July 1604
  5. August 1604
  6. October 1605
  7. May 1607
  8. June 1607
  9. August 1607
  10. Summer 1608
  11. January 1610
  12. Summer 1610
  13. Autumn 1610
  14. Spring 1611
  15. Autumn 1611
  16. May 1612
  17. October 1612
  18. November 1612
  19. September 1616
  20. Summer 1618
  21. Spring 1620
  22. 1622
  23. 1623
  24. 1624
  25. March 1625
  26. Spring 1625
  27. May 1625
  28. Summer 1626
  29. Summer 1627
  30. Autumn 1627
  31. November 1627
  32. Winter 1627
  33. Spring 1628
  34. Summer 1628
  35. Late Summer 1628
  36. November 1628
  37. December 1628
  38. Spring 1629
  39. 1630
  40. Summer 1631
  41. Winter 1632–3
  42. Summer 1633
  43. Winter 1633–4
  44. Spring 1634
  45. January 1635
  46. Spring 1635
  47. Summer 1635
  48. 1636
  49. December 1636
  50. 1637
  51. December 1637
  52. Spring 1638
  53. About the Author
  54. Also by the Author
  55. Copyright
  56. About the Publisher

Impulsively, he stepped over the candles and came into the room. At once she reared up in her bed. ‘Do you want me to die in despair?’ she demanded.

He checked and walked backwards, as if she were the queen herself. ‘I want to hold you,’ he said pitifully. ‘I want to hold you, Jane, I want to hold you to my heart.’

For a moment her gaunt strained face, lit by the dozen golden candleflames, was suddenly soft and young, as it had been when she had sold him inch after inch of ribbons in the mercer’s shop and he had called again and again on one pretext after another.

‘Hold me in your heart,’ she whispered. ‘And care for my children.’

She lay back on the pillows as John stepped over the wall of candleflames and hunkered down on the threshold.

‘I shall stay here,’ he said determinedly.

‘All right,’ she agreed. ‘Have you a pomander?’

‘A pomander, and I am sitting in a sea of strewing herbs,’ John said.

‘Stay then,’ she said. ‘I don’t want to die alone. But if I am feverish and wandering and start to come to you, you must slam the door in my face and lock it.’

He looked at her through the haze of the heat of the candles, and his face was nearly as haggard as her own. ‘I can’t do that,’ he said. ‘I won’t be able to do that.’

‘Promise me,’ she demanded. ‘It’s the last thing I will ever ask of you.’

He closed his eyes for a moment, to find his resolution. ‘I promise,’ he said eventually. ‘I will not touch you, I will come no closer. But I will be here for you. Just outside the door.’

‘That’s what I want,’ she said.

At midnight Jane grew feverish and tossed on the pillow and cried out against heretics and Popery and the Devil and the queen. At three in the morning she grew quiet and he could see her shivering, and yet he could not go in and put a shawl around her shoulders. At four she grew quiet and at peace, and at five she suddenly said, as simply as a child: ‘Goodnight, my dear,’ and fell asleep.

When dawn came and the sun rose warm on the apple blossoms at six, she did not wake.

Summer 1635

There was a brief unhappy argument about how Jane was to be buried. The parish authorities, responsible for the impossible task of trying to contain the plague, sent an order that the cart would come for her at midnight and her body was to be loaded on it by her family, who must then lock themselves indoors for another week until they were proved to be free of the disease.