Chapters (24)
- Title Page
- Copyright Notice
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Part I: Jack and Jill Live Up the Hill
- 1. The Dangerous Allure of Other People’s Children
- 2. Practically Perfect in Virtually No Ways
- 3. They Grow Up So Fast
- Part II: Jill and Jack Into the Black
- 4. To Market, To Market, To Buy a Fat Hen
- 5. The Roles We Choose Ourselves
- 6. The First Night of Safety
- 7. To Fetch a Pail of Water
- Part III: Jack and Jill with Time to Kill
- 8. The Skies to Shake, the Stones to Bleed
- 9. Someone’s Coming to Dinner
- Part IV: Jill and Jack Will Not Come Back
- 10. And From Her Grave, a Red, Red Rose …
- 11. … and From His Grave, A Briar
- 12. Everything You Never Wanted
- 13. A Thousand Miles of Hardship Between Here and Home
- Also by Seanan McGuire
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There are people in this world—good, honest, hard-working people—who want nothing more than to have a baby, and who try for years to conceive one without the slightest success. There are people who must see doctors in small, sterile rooms, hearing terrifying proclamations about how much it will cost to even begin hoping. There are people who must go on quests, chasing down the north wind to ask for directions to the House of the Moon, where wishes can be granted, if the hour is right and the need is great enough. There are people who will try, and try, and try, and receive nothing for their efforts but a broken heart.
Chester and Serena went upstairs to their room, to the bed they shared, and Chester did not put on a condom, and Serena did not remind him, and that was that. The next morning, she stopped taking her birth control pills. Three weeks later, she missed her period, which had been as orderly and on-time as the rest of her life since she was twelve years old. Two weeks after that, she sat in a small white room while a kindly man in a long white coat told her that she was going to be a mother.
“How long before we can get a picture of the baby?” asked Chester, already imagining himself showing it to the men at the office, jaw strong, gaze distant, like he was lost in dreams of playing catch with his son-to-be.
“Yes, how long?” asked Serena. The women she worked with always shrieked and fawned when someone arrived with a new sonogram to pass around the group. How nice it would be, to finally be the center of attention!
The doctor, who had dealt with his share of eager parents, smiled. “You’re about five weeks along,” he said. “I don’t recommend an ultrasound before twelve weeks, under normal circumstances. Now, this is your first pregnancy. You may want to wait before telling anyone that you’re pregnant. Everything seems normal now, but it’s early days yet, and it will be easier if you don’t have to take back an announcement.”
Serena looked bemused. Chester fumed. To even suggest that his wife might be so bad at being pregnant—something so simple that any fool off the street could do it—was offensive in ways he didn’t even have words for. But Dr. Tozer had been recommended by one of the partners at his firm, with a knowing twinkle in his eye, and Chester simply couldn’t see a way to change doctors without offending someone too important to offend.
“Twelve weeks, then,” said Chester. “What do we do until then?”