Chapters (24)
- Title Page
- Copyright Notice
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Part I: Jack and Jill Live Up the Hill
- 1. The Dangerous Allure of Other People’s Children
- 2. Practically Perfect in Virtually No Ways
- 3. They Grow Up So Fast
- Part II: Jill and Jack Into the Black
- 4. To Market, To Market, To Buy a Fat Hen
- 5. The Roles We Choose Ourselves
- 6. The First Night of Safety
- 7. To Fetch a Pail of Water
- Part III: Jack and Jill with Time to Kill
- 8. The Skies to Shake, the Stones to Bleed
- 9. Someone’s Coming to Dinner
- Part IV: Jill and Jack Will Not Come Back
- 10. And From Her Grave, a Red, Red Rose …
- 11. … and From His Grave, A Briar
- 12. Everything You Never Wanted
- 13. A Thousand Miles of Hardship Between Here and Home
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What those people didn’t see was the way some of the women on Serena’s boards would occasionally bring their daughters with them, making apologies about incompetent nannies or unwell babysitters, all while secretly gloating as everyone rushed to ooh and ahh over their beautiful baby girls. They were a garden in their own right, those privileged daughters in their gowns of lace and taffeta, and they would spend meetings and tea parties playing peacefully on the edge of the rug, cuddling their stuffed toys and feeding imaginary cookies to their dollies. Everyone she knew was quick to compliment those women for their sacrifices, and for what? Having a baby! Something so easy that people had been doing it since time began.
At night, she started dreaming of beautifully composed little girls with her mouth and Chester’s nose, their dresses explosions of fripperies and frills, the ladies falling over themselves to be the first to tell her how wonderful her daughter was.
This, you see, is the true danger of children: they are ambushes, each and every one of them. A person may look at someone else’s child and see only the surface, the shiny shoes or the perfect curls. They do not see the tears and the tantrums, the late nights, the sleepless hours, the worry. They do not even see the love, not really. It can be easy, when looking at children from the outside, to believe that they are things, dolls designed and programmed by their parents to behave in one manner, following one set of rules. It can be easy, when standing on the lofty shores of adulthood, not to remember that every adult was once a child, with ideas and ambitions of their own.
It can be easy, in the end, to forget that children are people, and that people will do what people will do, the consequences be damned.
It was right after Christmas—round after round of interminable office parties and charity events—when Chester turned to Serena and said, “I have something I would like to discuss with you.”
“I want to have a baby,” she replied.
Chester paused. He was an orderly man with an orderly wife, living in an ordinary, orderly life. He wasn’t used to her being quite so open with her desires or, indeed, having desires at all. It was dismaying … and a trifle exciting, if he were being honest.
Finally, he smiled, and said, “That was what I wanted to talk to you about.”