Back Don't Look for Me
Chapters (62)
  1. Cover
  2. Copyright Notice
  3. Dedication
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-one
  25. Chapter Twenty-two
  26. Chapter Twenty-three
  27. Chapter Twenty-four
  28. Chapter Twenty-five
  29. Chapter Twenty-six
  30. Chapter Twenty-seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-one
  35. Chapter Thirty-two
  36. Chapter Thirty-three
  37. Chapter Thirty-four
  38. Chapter Thirty-five
  39. Chapter Thirty-six
  40. Chapter Thirty-seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-one
  45. Chapter Forty-two
  46. Chapter Forty-three
  47. Chapter Forty-four
  48. Chapter Forty-five
  49. Chapter Forty-six
  50. Chapter Forty-seven
  51. Chapter Forty-eight
  52. Chapter Forty-nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-one
  55. Chapter Fifty-two
  56. Chapter Fifty-three
  57. Chapter Fifty-four
  58. Chapter Fifty-five
  59. Chapter Fifty-six
  60. Chapter Fifty-seven
  61. Acknowledgments [TK]
  62. Also by Wendy Walker

The storm has cleared.

I step into the kitchen and search for a phone. It hangs on the wall near the stove and I go to it quickly and lift the receiver. I hear only silence.

Please.

I press down on the button again and again, but still, there is just silence. I place the receiver back on the wall mount.

A man’s voice stuns me. Stops me cold.

“I told you last night. The phones are out.” I turn quickly, instinctively. I do it before I have time to hide what is surely on my face.

The man stands in the doorway. He’s dressed in fresh clothing, but otherwise they’re the same. Jeans and a flannel shirt. He has a slight beard—thicker than last night—which tells me he doesn’t wear a beard. That he is just unshaven.

Beside him, clinging to his waist, is Alice.

She looks up at him. Tugs on his shirt.

“She told me she was going to get water,” she says. Then she looks at me like I’m the child and she’s the mother. And I’ve been naughty.

“I thought I would check the phone first,” I say. It’s normal, wanting to make a call. To call my family. Why do I feel defensive?

I see his eyes run up and down my body, and I remember that I’m wearing the clothes of another woman. A woman who used to live here. Or does live here. I have to stop making assumptions.

“I hope it’s okay,” I say, looking down at the clothes. “They were in the dresser, like you said.”

“They belong to my wife,” he tells me. “But it’s fine. I’m glad they fit you.”

“Oh . . . well, I hope she won’t mind. I can change if you tell me where my clothes went.” I have a cheery voice now because I feel hopeful and because I want things to be okay in this room. In this house. In this family. I feel hopeful that there is a family now. He said my wife.

“They’re in the laundry room. Hanging on a rack,” he says.

I smile. “Oh! Okay. I’ll go see if they’re dry. Should I leave these clothes in the washer for your wife when she gets back?”

Alice buries her face in his side as though she’s watching a scary scene in a movie. A scene she knows is coming. Maybe because she’s seen this movie before.

“My wife is dead,” the man says. His tone is neutral. Maybe he’s been instructed on how to speak about this in front of Alice.

Maybe I feel better now. At least there was a wife. A dead wife, a dead mother and her death would explain some of the behavior.