Chapters (250)
- Dedication
- A NOTE TO READERS
- WELCOME TO EDEN MIXTAPE
- PROLOGUE
- 1. The Summer Before Seventeen
- THE SUMMER BEFORE SEVENTEEN
- NORA
- 2. Don’t Forget The Curly Fries
- DON’T FORGET THE CURLY FRIES
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 3. Busted
- BUSTED
- NATE
- 4. You’re Only Sixteen Once
- YOU’RE ONLY SIXTEEN ONCE
- NORA
- 5. Specks With Colossal Problems
- SPECKS WITH COLOSSAL PROBLEMS
- NATE
- 6. Vodka, Lime And Old Flames
- VODKA, LIME AND OLD FLAMES
- NORA
- 7. Connor James
- CONNOR JAMES
- NATE
- 8. Breathe In, Breathe Out
- BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT
- NORA
- 9. Last Summer
- LAST SUMMER
- NORA
- 10. Never Drinking Again
- NEVER DRINKING AGAIN
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 11. You Should See The Other Guy
- YOU SHOULD SEE THE OTHER GUY
- NATE
- 12. Sticks And Stones May Break My Bones
- STICKS AND STONES MAY BREAK MY BONES
- NATE
- 13. Bitches And Bonfires
- BITCHES AND BONFIRES
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 14. Late Night Swims
- LATE NIGHT SWIMS
- NATE
- 15. The Beginning Of The Downfall
- THE BEGINNING OF THE DOWNFALL
- NATE
- 16. Lost Stories, Found Words
- LOST STORIES, FOUND WORDS
- NORA
- 17. Lads Day Out
- LADS DAY OUT
- NATE
- 18. Carnivals And Confrontations
- CARNIVALS AND CONFRONTATIONS
- NORA
- 19. Cotton Candy And Daisy Bracelets
- COTTON CANDY AND DAISY BRACELETS
- NATE
- 20. I Got You
- I GOT YOU
- NORA
- 21. Seeing Ghosts
- SEEING GHOSTS
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 22. Pieces Of A Puzzle
- PIECES OF A PUZZLE
- NORA
- 23. The Thing About Odds
- THE THING ABOUT ODDS
- NATE
- 24. Sunrises And Cinnabons
- SUNRISES AND CINNABONS
- NORA
- 25. A Part Of Me Died
- A PART OF ME DIED
- NORA
- 26. What's His Name?
- WHAT'S HIS NAME?
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 27. Late Night Drives
- LATE NIGHT DRIVES
- NATE
- 28. You’re Naked
- YOU’RE NAKED
- NORA
- 29. The Quiet Destruction
- THE QUIET DESTRUCTION
- NATE
- 30. Wanna Fly?
- WANNA FLY?
- NATE
- 31. Frosted Flakes At 2Am
- FROSTED FLAKES AT 2AM
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 32. You're Safe With Me
- YOU'RE SAFE WITH ME
- NORA
- 33. Happy Birthday Jake
- HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAKE
- NATE
- PRESENT DAY
- 34. Expect The Unexpected
- EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED
- NORA
- 35. Ripples Of The Past
- RIPPLES OF THE PAST
- NATE
- 36. Drowning In Truth
- DROWNING IN TRUTH
- NORA
- 37. Reckonings
- RECKONINGS
- NATE
- 38. Just Like Old Times
- JUST LIKE OLD TIMES
- NORA
- 39. Parallel Lines
- PARALLEL LINES
- NATE
- 40. Front Row Seats To The Shit Show
- FRONT ROW SEATS TO THE SHIT SHOW
- NORA
- 41. Nora's Mixtape #17
- NORA'S MIXTAPE #17
- NATE
- 42. Sorry On Repeat
- SORRY ON REPEAT
- NATE
- 43. Seventeen
- SEVENTEEN
- NORA
- 44. The Rent Is Free In My Head
- THE RENT IS FREE IN MY HEAD
- NATE
- 45. The Geometry Of Almost
- THE GEOMETRY OF ALMOST
- NORA
- 46. Fresh Paint Over Old Cracks
- FRESH PAINT OVER OLD CRACKS
- NATE
- 47. Found Family
- FOUND FAMILY
- NORA
- 48. Deaf Or Blind?
- DEAF OR BLIND?
- NATE
- 49. Sixty Seconds
- SIXTY SECONDS
- NORA
- 50. Where Shadows Meet
- WHERE SHADOWS MEET
- NATE
- 51. The Alchemy Of Letting Go
- THE ALCHEMY OF LETTING GO
- NORA
- 52. Father Figure
- FATHER FIGURE
- NATE
- 53. A Very Unhappy Fourth Of July
- A VERY UNHAPPY FOURTH OF JULY
- NATE
- PRESENT DAY
- 54. Like A Bull In A China Shop
- LIKE A BULL IN A CHINA SHOP
- NORA
- 55. The Responsible Adult
- THE RESPONSIBLE ADULT
- NATE
- 56. The Call
- THE CALL
- NORA
- 57. Magnata
- MAGNATA
- NATE
- 58. The Aftermath
- THE AFTERMATH
- NORA
- 59. He Won't Hurt You Anymore
- HE WON'T HURT YOU ANYMORE
- NATE
- 60. I Know What You Did Last Summer
- I KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER
- NORA
- 61. Restoring What's Broken
- RESTORING WHAT'S BROKEN
- NATE
- 62. Three Words, None Of Them I Love You
- THREE WORDS, NONE OF THEM I LOVE YOU
- NORA
- 63. He Can’t, But I Will
- HE CAN’T, BUT I WILL
- NATE
- 64. A Wrinkle In Time
- A WRINKLE IN TIME
- NORA
- 65. A Flicker Of Hope
- A FLICKER OF HOPE
- NATE
- 66. Name
- NAME
- NORA
- 67. Did We Just Become Best Friends?
- DID WE JUST BECOME BEST FRIENDS?
- NATE
- 68. Dancing In The Dark
- DANCING IN THE DARK
- NORA
- 69. No More Hiding
- NO MORE HIDING
- NATE
- 70. Mic Drops And Bombshells
- MIC DROPS AND BOMBSHELLS
- NORA
- 71. The Sins We Inherit
- THE SINS WE INHERIT
- NATE
- 72. Blink And Gone
- BLINK AND GONE
- NORA
- 73. God, Can You Hear Me?
- GOD, CAN YOU HEAR ME?
- NATE
- 74. Blur
- BLUR
- NORA
- 75. Dancing With The Devil
- DANCING WITH THE DEVIL
- NATE
- 76. Becoming Through Breaking
- BECOMING THROUGH BREAKING
- NORA
- 77. Broken Promiƨeƨ
- BROKEN PROMIƧEƧ
- NATE
- 78. Choices
- CHOICES
- NORA
- EPILOGUE
- NICK
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
The glass splinters, then explodes inward. I tear off my suit jacket and drape it over the jagged edges. Even now, with flames licking at the hood and time slipping away, I can't bear the thought of the glass cutting into her skin. I reach through the makeshift barrier, barely registering the shards that slice into my own arms. The heat from the fire crawls over my flesh, but pain is irrelevant. Nothing matters except getting her out.
Her seatbelt is jammed, the metal around her legs twisted like modern art. I hear myself whispering, voice cracking, "Leni, it's me. I'm here. I'm gonna get you out, okay? Just stay with me. Please, stay with me." Each word is a promise I'm terrified I won't be able to keep.
Jay's already at the other side, muscles straining against the crushed metal pinning her down. "On three!" he shouts over the growing roar of flames.
We heave together, and I feel the weight shift just enough. I slip my arms under her, and for one heart-stopping moment, she's nothing but dead weight against me. But then I have her, and I'm stumbling back, cradling her. The asphalt is cold and unforgiving as I lay her down, my hands shaking as they brush her face. Blood paints abstract patterns on her skin, her hair a dark halo matted with crimson. Her dress—the one she wore when she smiled at me across the ballroom just hours ago—is now a canvas of violence.
"It's okay, Leni," I whisper, every word a desperate prayer. My throat closes around the words, but I force them out anyway. "Hold on a little longer, please.”
Jay crouches beside us, his voice urgent. "Nate, we have to go. She's not gonna make it if we don't move now."
I can't stop the tears that fall as I kiss her forehead. "I love you," I repeat, like if I say it enough times it'll be strong enough to keep her here. "Don't leave me. Please. Please, not you."
"Nate!" Jay's hand clamps down on my shoulder, reality crashing back in. "Pick her up. Let's go!"
His voice breaks through the fog of terror, and I lift her as gently as possible. As Jay peels out, tires screaming against asphalt, I hold her close in the backseat, whispering promises into her hair. I cradle her in my lap, my trembling hands pressing against wounds that won't stop bleeding. The crimson seeps between my fingers, warm and relentless. Behind my eyes, memories flash in rapid succession. Little Leni in pigtails and that worn Mickey Mouse shirt, twirling until she's dizzy. Her voice filling the house with off-key Guns N' Roses at fourteen. The way her nose still scrunches when she's angry. How her green eyes catch the light when she's creating something beautiful.
"Stay with me, Len. Please."
Jay's voice cuts through the fog, stretched tight with panic but holding steady. "We're almost there. Hold on."