Back Before We Were
Chapters (250)
  1. Dedication
  2. A NOTE TO READERS
  3. WELCOME TO EDEN MIXTAPE
  4. PROLOGUE
  5. 1. The Summer Before Seventeen
  6. THE SUMMER BEFORE SEVENTEEN
  7. NORA
  8. 2. Don’t Forget The Curly Fries
  9. DON’T FORGET THE CURLY FRIES
  10. NORA
  11. PRESENT DAY
  12. 3. Busted
  13. BUSTED
  14. NATE
  15. 4. You’re Only Sixteen Once
  16. YOU’RE ONLY SIXTEEN ONCE
  17. NORA
  18. 5. Specks With Colossal Problems
  19. SPECKS WITH COLOSSAL PROBLEMS
  20. NATE
  21. 6. Vodka, Lime And Old Flames
  22. VODKA, LIME AND OLD FLAMES
  23. NORA
  24. 7. Connor James
  25. CONNOR JAMES
  26. NATE
  27. 8. Breathe In, Breathe Out
  28. BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT
  29. NORA
  30. 9. Last Summer
  31. LAST SUMMER
  32. NORA
  33. 10. Never Drinking Again
  34. NEVER DRINKING AGAIN
  35. NORA
  36. PRESENT DAY
  37. 11. You Should See The Other Guy
  38. YOU SHOULD SEE THE OTHER GUY
  39. NATE
  40. 12. Sticks And Stones May Break My Bones
  41. STICKS AND STONES MAY BREAK MY BONES
  42. NATE
  43. 13. Bitches And Bonfires
  44. BITCHES AND BONFIRES
  45. NORA
  46. PRESENT DAY
  47. 14. Late Night Swims
  48. LATE NIGHT SWIMS
  49. NATE
  50. 15. The Beginning Of The Downfall
  51. THE BEGINNING OF THE DOWNFALL
  52. NATE
  53. 16. Lost Stories, Found Words
  54. LOST STORIES, FOUND WORDS
  55. NORA
  56. 17. Lads Day Out
  57. LADS DAY OUT
  58. NATE
  59. 18. Carnivals And Confrontations
  60. CARNIVALS AND CONFRONTATIONS
  61. NORA
  62. 19. Cotton Candy And Daisy Bracelets
  63. COTTON CANDY AND DAISY BRACELETS
  64. NATE
  65. 20. I Got You
  66. I GOT YOU
  67. NORA
  68. 21. Seeing Ghosts
  69. SEEING GHOSTS
  70. NORA
  71. PRESENT DAY
  72. 22. Pieces Of A Puzzle
  73. PIECES OF A PUZZLE
  74. NORA
  75. 23. The Thing About Odds
  76. THE THING ABOUT ODDS
  77. NATE
  78. 24. Sunrises And Cinnabons
  79. SUNRISES AND CINNABONS
  80. NORA
  81. 25. A Part Of Me Died
  82. A PART OF ME DIED
  83. NORA
  84. 26. What's His Name?
  85. WHAT'S HIS NAME?
  86. NORA
  87. PRESENT DAY
  88. 27. Late Night Drives
  89. LATE NIGHT DRIVES
  90. NATE
  91. 28. You’re Naked
  92. YOU’RE NAKED
  93. NORA
  94. 29. The Quiet Destruction
  95. THE QUIET DESTRUCTION
  96. NATE
  97. 30. Wanna Fly?
  98. WANNA FLY?
  99. NATE
  100. 31. Frosted Flakes At 2Am
  101. FROSTED FLAKES AT 2AM
  102. NORA
  103. PRESENT DAY
  104. 32. You're Safe With Me
  105. YOU'RE SAFE WITH ME
  106. NORA
  107. 33. Happy Birthday Jake
  108. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAKE
  109. NATE
  110. PRESENT DAY
  111. 34. Expect The Unexpected
  112. EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED
  113. NORA
  114. 35. Ripples Of The Past
  115. RIPPLES OF THE PAST
  116. NATE
  117. 36. Drowning In Truth
  118. DROWNING IN TRUTH
  119. NORA
  120. 37. Reckonings
  121. RECKONINGS
  122. NATE
  123. 38. Just Like Old Times
  124. JUST LIKE OLD TIMES
  125. NORA
  126. 39. Parallel Lines
  127. PARALLEL LINES
  128. NATE
  129. 40. Front Row Seats To The Shit Show
  130. FRONT ROW SEATS TO THE SHIT SHOW
  131. NORA
  132. 41. Nora's Mixtape #17
  133. NORA'S MIXTAPE #17
  134. NATE
  135. 42. Sorry On Repeat
  136. SORRY ON REPEAT
  137. NATE
  138. 43. Seventeen
  139. SEVENTEEN
  140. NORA
  141. 44. The Rent Is Free In My Head
  142. THE RENT IS FREE IN MY HEAD
  143. NATE
  144. 45. The Geometry Of Almost
  145. THE GEOMETRY OF ALMOST
  146. NORA
  147. 46. Fresh Paint Over Old Cracks
  148. FRESH PAINT OVER OLD CRACKS
  149. NATE
  150. 47. Found Family
  151. FOUND FAMILY
  152. NORA
  153. 48. Deaf Or Blind?
  154. DEAF OR BLIND?
  155. NATE
  156. 49. Sixty Seconds
  157. SIXTY SECONDS
  158. NORA
  159. 50. Where Shadows Meet
  160. WHERE SHADOWS MEET
  161. NATE
  162. 51. The Alchemy Of Letting Go
  163. THE ALCHEMY OF LETTING GO
  164. NORA
  165. 52. Father Figure
  166. FATHER FIGURE
  167. NATE
  168. 53. A Very Unhappy Fourth Of July
  169. A VERY UNHAPPY FOURTH OF JULY
  170. NATE
  171. PRESENT DAY
  172. 54. Like A Bull In A China Shop
  173. LIKE A BULL IN A CHINA SHOP
  174. NORA
  175. 55. The Responsible Adult
  176. THE RESPONSIBLE ADULT
  177. NATE
  178. 56. The Call
  179. THE CALL
  180. NORA
  181. 57. Magnata
  182. MAGNATA
  183. NATE
  184. 58. The Aftermath
  185. THE AFTERMATH
  186. NORA
  187. 59. He Won't Hurt You Anymore
  188. HE WON'T HURT YOU ANYMORE
  189. NATE
  190. 60. I Know What You Did Last Summer
  191. I KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER
  192. NORA
  193. 61. Restoring What's Broken
  194. RESTORING WHAT'S BROKEN
  195. NATE
  196. 62. Three Words, None Of Them I Love You
  197. THREE WORDS, NONE OF THEM I LOVE YOU
  198. NORA
  199. 63. He Can’t, But I Will
  200. HE CAN’T, BUT I WILL
  201. NATE
  202. 64. A Wrinkle In Time
  203. A WRINKLE IN TIME
  204. NORA
  205. 65. A Flicker Of Hope
  206. A FLICKER OF HOPE
  207. NATE
  208. 66. Name
  209. NAME
  210. NORA
  211. 67. Did We Just Become Best Friends?
  212. DID WE JUST BECOME BEST FRIENDS?
  213. NATE
  214. 68. Dancing In The Dark
  215. DANCING IN THE DARK
  216. NORA
  217. 69. No More Hiding
  218. NO MORE HIDING
  219. NATE
  220. 70. Mic Drops And Bombshells
  221. MIC DROPS AND BOMBSHELLS
  222. NORA
  223. 71. The Sins We Inherit
  224. THE SINS WE INHERIT
  225. NATE
  226. 72. Blink And Gone
  227. BLINK AND GONE
  228. NORA
  229. 73. God, Can You Hear Me?
  230. GOD, CAN YOU HEAR ME?
  231. NATE
  232. 74. Blur
  233. BLUR
  234. NORA
  235. 75. Dancing With The Devil
  236. DANCING WITH THE DEVIL
  237. NATE
  238. 76. Becoming Through Breaking
  239. BECOMING THROUGH BREAKING
  240. NORA
  241. 77. Broken Promiƨeƨ
  242. BROKEN PROMIƧEƧ
  243. NATE
  244. 78. Choices
  245. CHOICES
  246. NORA
  247. EPILOGUE
  248. NICK
  249. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  250. ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Nate remains frozen, his breathing ragged like a wounded animal’s, each exhale weighted with years of suppressed rage. His fists are still clenched, knuckles bleached white with restraint that's rapidly unraveling.

"Nate, leave it. Please." Lydia's voice is soft but urgent, like trying to talk down an approaching tornado.

But he's beyond words now, lost in a red mist of fury and old wounds torn fresh. His body vibrates with barely contained violence, a bomb with a rapidly burning fuse.

"Nate," I plead, my voice cracking like thin ice. "Whatever you're thinking right now, just breathe. Don't let him win."

He doesn't acknowledge me. His focus is laser-locked on the door Scott disappeared through, every muscle coiled for pursuit. Then he moves, and it's like watching destiny unfold in slow motion.

Lydia turns to me, her face a roadmap of desperate fear.

"Stop him. Please. Don't let him do something he'll regret."

I nod, already running.

"Nate!" My voice chases him down the hallway, but it feels futile, like trying to stop an avalanche with whispers.

Because deep in my gut, I know this isn't something anyone can stop. This is Nate's Rubicon, his point of no return, and all I can do is pray I'm fast enough to prevent the impending catastrophe. Or at least be there to gather what remains when the dust settles.

71. The Sins We Inherit

CHAPTER 71

THE SINS WE INHERIT

NATE

I'm sitting in the car, knuckles white against black leather, watching the neon sign above Furlo's flicker like a dying heartbeat. Each breath feels like swallowing glass, sharp and cold against my throat. The parking lot stretches before me, a canvas of shadows and regret.

My phone illuminates the darkness again—Nora. The voicemail notification blinks accusingly, her words from earlier echoing in my mind: "I'm with you, Nate. No more hiding."

The truth sits heavy in my chest.

I can't drag her into this anymore.

She deserves better than someone who carries destruction in their DNA. She broke through every wall I built, only to find herself in the middle of my personal hell. That's my specialty—corrupting everything pure that dares to touch my life. Maybe it's the universe's twisted way of saying I don't get the fairytale ending. No girl, no dreams, no shot at redemption. Just my father's legacy of rage wrapped in designer suits and trust fund guilt.

Another call lights up the screen. I throw the phone onto the passenger seat, watching her name fade to black. It feels like watching my last chance at happiness slip through my fingers. The night air hits me as I step out. There's a sick irony in heading into another bar, choosing another fight—becoming everything I swore I'd never be. But this—this familiar dance of anger and self-destruction—is the only home I've ever known.