Chapters (250)
- Dedication
- A NOTE TO READERS
- WELCOME TO EDEN MIXTAPE
- PROLOGUE
- 1. The Summer Before Seventeen
- THE SUMMER BEFORE SEVENTEEN
- NORA
- 2. Don’t Forget The Curly Fries
- DON’T FORGET THE CURLY FRIES
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 3. Busted
- BUSTED
- NATE
- 4. You’re Only Sixteen Once
- YOU’RE ONLY SIXTEEN ONCE
- NORA
- 5. Specks With Colossal Problems
- SPECKS WITH COLOSSAL PROBLEMS
- NATE
- 6. Vodka, Lime And Old Flames
- VODKA, LIME AND OLD FLAMES
- NORA
- 7. Connor James
- CONNOR JAMES
- NATE
- 8. Breathe In, Breathe Out
- BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT
- NORA
- 9. Last Summer
- LAST SUMMER
- NORA
- 10. Never Drinking Again
- NEVER DRINKING AGAIN
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 11. You Should See The Other Guy
- YOU SHOULD SEE THE OTHER GUY
- NATE
- 12. Sticks And Stones May Break My Bones
- STICKS AND STONES MAY BREAK MY BONES
- NATE
- 13. Bitches And Bonfires
- BITCHES AND BONFIRES
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 14. Late Night Swims
- LATE NIGHT SWIMS
- NATE
- 15. The Beginning Of The Downfall
- THE BEGINNING OF THE DOWNFALL
- NATE
- 16. Lost Stories, Found Words
- LOST STORIES, FOUND WORDS
- NORA
- 17. Lads Day Out
- LADS DAY OUT
- NATE
- 18. Carnivals And Confrontations
- CARNIVALS AND CONFRONTATIONS
- NORA
- 19. Cotton Candy And Daisy Bracelets
- COTTON CANDY AND DAISY BRACELETS
- NATE
- 20. I Got You
- I GOT YOU
- NORA
- 21. Seeing Ghosts
- SEEING GHOSTS
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 22. Pieces Of A Puzzle
- PIECES OF A PUZZLE
- NORA
- 23. The Thing About Odds
- THE THING ABOUT ODDS
- NATE
- 24. Sunrises And Cinnabons
- SUNRISES AND CINNABONS
- NORA
- 25. A Part Of Me Died
- A PART OF ME DIED
- NORA
- 26. What's His Name?
- WHAT'S HIS NAME?
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 27. Late Night Drives
- LATE NIGHT DRIVES
- NATE
- 28. You’re Naked
- YOU’RE NAKED
- NORA
- 29. The Quiet Destruction
- THE QUIET DESTRUCTION
- NATE
- 30. Wanna Fly?
- WANNA FLY?
- NATE
- 31. Frosted Flakes At 2Am
- FROSTED FLAKES AT 2AM
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 32. You're Safe With Me
- YOU'RE SAFE WITH ME
- NORA
- 33. Happy Birthday Jake
- HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAKE
- NATE
- PRESENT DAY
- 34. Expect The Unexpected
- EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED
- NORA
- 35. Ripples Of The Past
- RIPPLES OF THE PAST
- NATE
- 36. Drowning In Truth
- DROWNING IN TRUTH
- NORA
- 37. Reckonings
- RECKONINGS
- NATE
- 38. Just Like Old Times
- JUST LIKE OLD TIMES
- NORA
- 39. Parallel Lines
- PARALLEL LINES
- NATE
- 40. Front Row Seats To The Shit Show
- FRONT ROW SEATS TO THE SHIT SHOW
- NORA
- 41. Nora's Mixtape #17
- NORA'S MIXTAPE #17
- NATE
- 42. Sorry On Repeat
- SORRY ON REPEAT
- NATE
- 43. Seventeen
- SEVENTEEN
- NORA
- 44. The Rent Is Free In My Head
- THE RENT IS FREE IN MY HEAD
- NATE
- 45. The Geometry Of Almost
- THE GEOMETRY OF ALMOST
- NORA
- 46. Fresh Paint Over Old Cracks
- FRESH PAINT OVER OLD CRACKS
- NATE
- 47. Found Family
- FOUND FAMILY
- NORA
- 48. Deaf Or Blind?
- DEAF OR BLIND?
- NATE
- 49. Sixty Seconds
- SIXTY SECONDS
- NORA
- 50. Where Shadows Meet
- WHERE SHADOWS MEET
- NATE
- 51. The Alchemy Of Letting Go
- THE ALCHEMY OF LETTING GO
- NORA
- 52. Father Figure
- FATHER FIGURE
- NATE
- 53. A Very Unhappy Fourth Of July
- A VERY UNHAPPY FOURTH OF JULY
- NATE
- PRESENT DAY
- 54. Like A Bull In A China Shop
- LIKE A BULL IN A CHINA SHOP
- NORA
- 55. The Responsible Adult
- THE RESPONSIBLE ADULT
- NATE
- 56. The Call
- THE CALL
- NORA
- 57. Magnata
- MAGNATA
- NATE
- 58. The Aftermath
- THE AFTERMATH
- NORA
- 59. He Won't Hurt You Anymore
- HE WON'T HURT YOU ANYMORE
- NATE
- 60. I Know What You Did Last Summer
- I KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER
- NORA
- 61. Restoring What's Broken
- RESTORING WHAT'S BROKEN
- NATE
- 62. Three Words, None Of Them I Love You
- THREE WORDS, NONE OF THEM I LOVE YOU
- NORA
- 63. He Can’t, But I Will
- HE CAN’T, BUT I WILL
- NATE
- 64. A Wrinkle In Time
- A WRINKLE IN TIME
- NORA
- 65. A Flicker Of Hope
- A FLICKER OF HOPE
- NATE
- 66. Name
- NAME
- NORA
- 67. Did We Just Become Best Friends?
- DID WE JUST BECOME BEST FRIENDS?
- NATE
- 68. Dancing In The Dark
- DANCING IN THE DARK
- NORA
- 69. No More Hiding
- NO MORE HIDING
- NATE
- 70. Mic Drops And Bombshells
- MIC DROPS AND BOMBSHELLS
- NORA
- 71. The Sins We Inherit
- THE SINS WE INHERIT
- NATE
- 72. Blink And Gone
- BLINK AND GONE
- NORA
- 73. God, Can You Hear Me?
- GOD, CAN YOU HEAR ME?
- NATE
- 74. Blur
- BLUR
- NORA
- 75. Dancing With The Devil
- DANCING WITH THE DEVIL
- NATE
- 76. Becoming Through Breaking
- BECOMING THROUGH BREAKING
- NORA
- 77. Broken Promiƨeƨ
- BROKEN PROMIƧEƧ
- NATE
- 78. Choices
- CHOICES
- NORA
- EPILOGUE
- NICK
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
"No," I say, planting my feet. "Someone has to look out for him, and if you won't, then I will."
He sets the drink down with a sharp crack, leaning forward with intensity burning in his eyes. "I've spent my whole life looking out for him. Maybe he's right. Maybe it's time he sees how fucked up things really are."
"Fine." I cross my arms, steel in my spine. "Then I'll go after him myself."
He stares at me, frustration and something deeper etched into his features. Before he can argue, voices spill in from the hallway. Ollie, Mia, Camilla, and Marcus burst into the room, their laughter dying as they read the tension crackling in the air.
"Where's Jake?" Ollie asks, his grin fading as he takes in our expressions.
Nate leans back, voice flat as desert sand. "He left. Apparently, Farrah's more fun than we are."
Marcus perks up. "Shay and Harlow are throwing something tonight. I wouldn’t be surprised if that’s where they were heading."
"Well looks like we’re going to a party then," Ollie says, already moving toward the door. "I'll drive!"
"No, you won't," Mia cuts in, planting herself in his path. "You've had too much already."
"I'm fine," Ollie protests, but Mia's stern look silences him.
"I'll drive," she declares, gesturing to Marcus and Camilla. "You three are coming with me."
"You two okay to ride together?" Camilla asks, glancing between Nate and me with knowing concern.
"I'm driving," I say quickly, before Nate can object.
He groans, rubbing his face. "Fine."
Mia shepherds her group out, and Nate pushes off the couch with deliberate slowness, like every movement costs him. At the door, he pauses and looks back. "Don't get your hopes up."
I don't reply because hope isn't what's driving me anymore. It's fear—fear of what Jake might do, fear of losing him, fear of everything falling apart.
The late afternoon air bites at my exposed skin as Nate unlocks the Range Rover and slides into the passenger seat. I start the engine, the dashboard casting an eerie glow across his face. He looks exhausted. I pull out of the driveway, the silence between us heavy with unspoken words.
What the hell are we about to walk into?
The party hits me like a wall of chaos—pure, unfiltered teenage rebellion ripped straight from a movie screen. Music thunders through the walls, making my ribcage vibrate. Bodies pack every corner like sardines, the air thick with the sickly-sweet smell of spilled beer and stale smoke. Red cups litter every surface, and the kitchen's a warzone of scattered liquor bottles and sticky counters. A couple is tangled against the wall in the living room, lost in their own world. A whoop echoes from upstairs, and I force my mind away from what that might mean.