Back Before We Were
Chapters (250)
  1. Dedication
  2. A NOTE TO READERS
  3. WELCOME TO EDEN MIXTAPE
  4. PROLOGUE
  5. 1. The Summer Before Seventeen
  6. THE SUMMER BEFORE SEVENTEEN
  7. NORA
  8. 2. Don’t Forget The Curly Fries
  9. DON’T FORGET THE CURLY FRIES
  10. NORA
  11. PRESENT DAY
  12. 3. Busted
  13. BUSTED
  14. NATE
  15. 4. You’re Only Sixteen Once
  16. YOU’RE ONLY SIXTEEN ONCE
  17. NORA
  18. 5. Specks With Colossal Problems
  19. SPECKS WITH COLOSSAL PROBLEMS
  20. NATE
  21. 6. Vodka, Lime And Old Flames
  22. VODKA, LIME AND OLD FLAMES
  23. NORA
  24. 7. Connor James
  25. CONNOR JAMES
  26. NATE
  27. 8. Breathe In, Breathe Out
  28. BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT
  29. NORA
  30. 9. Last Summer
  31. LAST SUMMER
  32. NORA
  33. 10. Never Drinking Again
  34. NEVER DRINKING AGAIN
  35. NORA
  36. PRESENT DAY
  37. 11. You Should See The Other Guy
  38. YOU SHOULD SEE THE OTHER GUY
  39. NATE
  40. 12. Sticks And Stones May Break My Bones
  41. STICKS AND STONES MAY BREAK MY BONES
  42. NATE
  43. 13. Bitches And Bonfires
  44. BITCHES AND BONFIRES
  45. NORA
  46. PRESENT DAY
  47. 14. Late Night Swims
  48. LATE NIGHT SWIMS
  49. NATE
  50. 15. The Beginning Of The Downfall
  51. THE BEGINNING OF THE DOWNFALL
  52. NATE
  53. 16. Lost Stories, Found Words
  54. LOST STORIES, FOUND WORDS
  55. NORA
  56. 17. Lads Day Out
  57. LADS DAY OUT
  58. NATE
  59. 18. Carnivals And Confrontations
  60. CARNIVALS AND CONFRONTATIONS
  61. NORA
  62. 19. Cotton Candy And Daisy Bracelets
  63. COTTON CANDY AND DAISY BRACELETS
  64. NATE
  65. 20. I Got You
  66. I GOT YOU
  67. NORA
  68. 21. Seeing Ghosts
  69. SEEING GHOSTS
  70. NORA
  71. PRESENT DAY
  72. 22. Pieces Of A Puzzle
  73. PIECES OF A PUZZLE
  74. NORA
  75. 23. The Thing About Odds
  76. THE THING ABOUT ODDS
  77. NATE
  78. 24. Sunrises And Cinnabons
  79. SUNRISES AND CINNABONS
  80. NORA
  81. 25. A Part Of Me Died
  82. A PART OF ME DIED
  83. NORA
  84. 26. What's His Name?
  85. WHAT'S HIS NAME?
  86. NORA
  87. PRESENT DAY
  88. 27. Late Night Drives
  89. LATE NIGHT DRIVES
  90. NATE
  91. 28. You’re Naked
  92. YOU’RE NAKED
  93. NORA
  94. 29. The Quiet Destruction
  95. THE QUIET DESTRUCTION
  96. NATE
  97. 30. Wanna Fly?
  98. WANNA FLY?
  99. NATE
  100. 31. Frosted Flakes At 2Am
  101. FROSTED FLAKES AT 2AM
  102. NORA
  103. PRESENT DAY
  104. 32. You're Safe With Me
  105. YOU'RE SAFE WITH ME
  106. NORA
  107. 33. Happy Birthday Jake
  108. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAKE
  109. NATE
  110. PRESENT DAY
  111. 34. Expect The Unexpected
  112. EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED
  113. NORA
  114. 35. Ripples Of The Past
  115. RIPPLES OF THE PAST
  116. NATE
  117. 36. Drowning In Truth
  118. DROWNING IN TRUTH
  119. NORA
  120. 37. Reckonings
  121. RECKONINGS
  122. NATE
  123. 38. Just Like Old Times
  124. JUST LIKE OLD TIMES
  125. NORA
  126. 39. Parallel Lines
  127. PARALLEL LINES
  128. NATE
  129. 40. Front Row Seats To The Shit Show
  130. FRONT ROW SEATS TO THE SHIT SHOW
  131. NORA
  132. 41. Nora's Mixtape #17
  133. NORA'S MIXTAPE #17
  134. NATE
  135. 42. Sorry On Repeat
  136. SORRY ON REPEAT
  137. NATE
  138. 43. Seventeen
  139. SEVENTEEN
  140. NORA
  141. 44. The Rent Is Free In My Head
  142. THE RENT IS FREE IN MY HEAD
  143. NATE
  144. 45. The Geometry Of Almost
  145. THE GEOMETRY OF ALMOST
  146. NORA
  147. 46. Fresh Paint Over Old Cracks
  148. FRESH PAINT OVER OLD CRACKS
  149. NATE
  150. 47. Found Family
  151. FOUND FAMILY
  152. NORA
  153. 48. Deaf Or Blind?
  154. DEAF OR BLIND?
  155. NATE
  156. 49. Sixty Seconds
  157. SIXTY SECONDS
  158. NORA
  159. 50. Where Shadows Meet
  160. WHERE SHADOWS MEET
  161. NATE
  162. 51. The Alchemy Of Letting Go
  163. THE ALCHEMY OF LETTING GO
  164. NORA
  165. 52. Father Figure
  166. FATHER FIGURE
  167. NATE
  168. 53. A Very Unhappy Fourth Of July
  169. A VERY UNHAPPY FOURTH OF JULY
  170. NATE
  171. PRESENT DAY
  172. 54. Like A Bull In A China Shop
  173. LIKE A BULL IN A CHINA SHOP
  174. NORA
  175. 55. The Responsible Adult
  176. THE RESPONSIBLE ADULT
  177. NATE
  178. 56. The Call
  179. THE CALL
  180. NORA
  181. 57. Magnata
  182. MAGNATA
  183. NATE
  184. 58. The Aftermath
  185. THE AFTERMATH
  186. NORA
  187. 59. He Won't Hurt You Anymore
  188. HE WON'T HURT YOU ANYMORE
  189. NATE
  190. 60. I Know What You Did Last Summer
  191. I KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER
  192. NORA
  193. 61. Restoring What's Broken
  194. RESTORING WHAT'S BROKEN
  195. NATE
  196. 62. Three Words, None Of Them I Love You
  197. THREE WORDS, NONE OF THEM I LOVE YOU
  198. NORA
  199. 63. He Can’t, But I Will
  200. HE CAN’T, BUT I WILL
  201. NATE
  202. 64. A Wrinkle In Time
  203. A WRINKLE IN TIME
  204. NORA
  205. 65. A Flicker Of Hope
  206. A FLICKER OF HOPE
  207. NATE
  208. 66. Name
  209. NAME
  210. NORA
  211. 67. Did We Just Become Best Friends?
  212. DID WE JUST BECOME BEST FRIENDS?
  213. NATE
  214. 68. Dancing In The Dark
  215. DANCING IN THE DARK
  216. NORA
  217. 69. No More Hiding
  218. NO MORE HIDING
  219. NATE
  220. 70. Mic Drops And Bombshells
  221. MIC DROPS AND BOMBSHELLS
  222. NORA
  223. 71. The Sins We Inherit
  224. THE SINS WE INHERIT
  225. NATE
  226. 72. Blink And Gone
  227. BLINK AND GONE
  228. NORA
  229. 73. God, Can You Hear Me?
  230. GOD, CAN YOU HEAR ME?
  231. NATE
  232. 74. Blur
  233. BLUR
  234. NORA
  235. 75. Dancing With The Devil
  236. DANCING WITH THE DEVIL
  237. NATE
  238. 76. Becoming Through Breaking
  239. BECOMING THROUGH BREAKING
  240. NORA
  241. 77. Broken Promiƨeƨ
  242. BROKEN PROMIƧEƧ
  243. NATE
  244. 78. Choices
  245. CHOICES
  246. NORA
  247. EPILOGUE
  248. NICK
  249. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  250. ABOUT THE AUTHOR

"You saw me this morning. In bed, no less."

The memory slams into me—her beneath me, gasping my name, nails drawing blood down my back—and I groan, adjusting myself painfully.

"Fuck, Nora. I don't know how I'm supposed to make it through this party when you do this to me."

Her giggle makes my chest ache with something I never knew I could feel.

"Tonight," she promises, eyes dark. "Just don't actually ruin the dress. It's my favorite."

I pull her against me one last time, kissing her hard before whispering, "I'll buy you a closet full if it means I can keep ruining them whenever you wear them."

She laughs. "You're crazy."

"For you? Entirely." And nothing has ever been more true.

We slip out of the laundry room, her hand brushing mine as we move back toward the chaos of party prep. The distant hum of chatter and laughter filters through the walls, grounding us back in reality. Each step feels like we're emerging from our own private world into one that's suddenly too bright, too loud.

Nora's cheeks are flushed, her hair slightly tousled, and she looks at me from under her lashes, a small, secret smile playing on her lips. Her fingertips touch her neck where my lips were moments ago, and the gesture sends heat coursing through me all over again. I catch her glance and wink, sealing our private moment between us.

"Try not to stare too much, will you?" she teases, smoothing down her dress with trembling fingers.

"I'll try, but I'm not making any promises." To her surprise, and maybe to prove a point about being done with hiding, I plant a kiss on her lips right there in the open. "Later though, I'm keeping all my promises."

"You're trouble, Nathaniel," she whispers, but her eyes spark with something that makes me want to drag her right back to that laundry room.

"Likewise, Lenora." I say with a wink.

We part ways and Ollie spots me the second I step back outside, his arms crossed, and a single eyebrow raised. "Oh, perfect timing, Nate. Really. Now that I've folded approximately forty napkins, rearranged tables twice, and listened to Lydia lecture me about floral symmetry, you've decided to grace us with your presence?"

I shrug, slapping him on the back as I pass, still riding high on the lingering taste of Nora's lips. "You're killing it, Ol. Keep up the good work."

He scoffs, leaning dramatically on the counter like he's about to pass out. "I am killing it, thanks for noticing. But you know what would be great? Some help from my brother-in-law."

I freeze mid-step, turning to glare at him. "You want to run that by me again?"

Ollie grins, waggling his eyebrows. "You think I didn't notice you slipping off with my sister? You're not exactly stealthy. And she came back looking like she just ran a marathon in a wind tunnel. I've got eyes, you know."