Chapters (58)
- Cover
- Also by Oliver Harris
- ONE
- TWO
- THREE
- FOUR
- FIVE
- SIX
- SEVEN
- EIGHT
- NINE
- TEN
- ELEVEN
- TWELVE
- THIRTEEN
- FOURTEEN
- FIFTEEN
- SIXTEEN
- SEVENTEEN
- EIGHTEEN
- NINETEEN
- TWENTY
- TWENTY-ONE
- TWENTY-TWO
- TWENTY-THREE
- TWENTY-FOUR
- TWENTY-FIVE
- TWENTY-SIX
- TWENTY-SEVEN
- TWENTY-EIGHT
- TWENTY-NINE
- THIRTY
- THIRTY-ONE
- THIRTY-TWO
- THIRTY-THREE
- THIRTY-FOUR
- THIRTY-FIVE
- THIRTY-SIX
- THIRTY-SEVEN
- THIRTY-EIGHT
- THIRTY-NINE
- FORTY
- FORTY-ONE
- FORTY-TWO
- FORTY-THREE
- FORTY-FOUR
- FORTY-FIVE
- FORTY-SIX
- FORTY-SEVEN
- FORTY-EIGHT
- FORTY-NINE
- FIFTY
- FIFTY-ONE
- FIFTY-TWO
- FIFTY-THREE
- FIFTY-FOUR
- FIFTY-FIVE
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
I turned on the PC and logged into my TutaNota account. The coded email wasn’t there. I checked the deleted folder, then the junk, then sent mail. All traces of it, including my own response, had been wiped.
A car passed, stopped at the end of the road. It was a van with a ladder on the roof. Parked for two minutes, disappeared again.
I called a contact in Visas and Immigration, read them my passport number.
‘What’s the status on this individual?’
‘Red-flagged.’
‘Any details?’
‘Instructions are to detain and notify Special Branch.’
I felt a hand grip my arm suddenly. Step this way, please. I didn’t have the authority to do anything about it over a phone call. I thanked the contact, went to the shed, took a trowel, left through the back gate.
Five minutes walking took me past a postal depot and the first grey-brown fields to a municipal cemetery. I stopped at a clean, new headstone, bowed my head then looked around. No one. I continued to the far end of the cemetery, over the fence, into the woods.
I remembered the forms of specific trees. Ash and beech trees planted twenty years ago. After ten minutes I stopped and began to dig. Just as I was thinking I’d chosen the wrong spot I hit thick black plastic. A couple of moments later I was able to retrieve the canister. The top was stiff but opened eventually. Inside: two passports, papers, hair dye, cash in five currencies totalling ten grand, plus a few basic items of kit: bump keys, skeleton keys, tracking devices. Most field agents organise their own emergency stash: contraband and leftovers. Few entirely trust their wellbeing to anyone else. I checked the dates on the passports, then returned to the house. I sat on the sofa and brought up a map of Kazakhstan on my phone. Vast and blank. The empty centre of the world. I wasn’t the first to feel it calling.
NINE
I flew into Kazakhstan on Friday 2 December, a Ukraine Air flight from Kiev. The plane was half full, mostly business people, some families, one or two backpackers. I boarded last so I could walk the length of it and see the faces of my fellow passengers.
I’d asked for a window seat. The desert began a few miles east of the Volga river, Caucasus mountains flattening, a flash of the Caspian. By the time we were beneath cloud again the world looked like Mars: rippled rock, pink then grey, running lifeless to the horizon. I got that ominous feeling I always got flying over deserts. You think you have diminished me, they seem to say, but it is you who are diminished.