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Also by Larry Levis

Wrecking Crew, 1972
The Afterlife, 1977
The Dollmaker's Ghost, 1981
Winter Stars, 1985
The Widening Spell of the Leaves, 1991

The publication of this book is supported by grants from the National Endowment for the Arts in Washington, D. C., a Federal agency, and the Pennsylvania Council on the Arts.

Dedication

For my mother and in memory of my father

Winter Stars

THE POET AT SEVENTEEN

My youth? I hear it mostly in the long, volleying

Echoes of billiards in the pool halls where

I spent it all, extravagantly, believing

My delicate touch on a cue would last for years.

Outside the vineyards vanished under rain,

And the trees held still or seemed to hold their breath

When the men I worked with, pruning orchards, sang

Their lost songs: Amapola; La Paloma;

Jalisco, No Te Rajes—the corny tunes

Their sons would just as soon forget, at recess,

Where they lounged apart in small groups of their own.

Still, even when they laughed, they laughed in Spanish.

I hated high school then, & on weekends drove

A tractor through the widowed fields. It was so boring

I memorized poems above the engine's monotone.

Sometimes whole days slipped past without my noticing,

And birds of all kinds flew in front of me then.

I learned to tell them apart by their empty squabblings,

The slightest change in plumage, or the inflection

Of a call. And why not admit it? I was happy

Then. I believed in no one. I had the kind

Of solitude the world usually allows

Only to kings & criminals who are extinct,

Who disdain this world, & who rot, corrupt & shallow

As fields I disced: I turned up the same gray

Earth for years. Still, the land made a glum raisin

Each autumn, & made that little hell of days-—

The vines must have seemed like cages to the Mexicans

Who were paid seven cents a tray for the grapes

They picked. Inside the vines it was hot, & spiders

Strummed their emptiness. Black Widow, Daddy Longlegs.

The vine canes whipped our faces. None of us cared.

And the girls I tried to talk to after class

Sailed by, then each night lay enthroned in my bed,

With nothing on but the jewels of their embarrassment.

Eyes, lips, dreams. No one. The sky & the road.

A life like that? It seemed to go on forever—

Reading poems in school, then driving a stuttering tractor

Warm afternoons, then billiards on blue October

Nights. The thick stars. But mostly now I remember

The trees, wearing their mysterious yellow sullenness

Like party dresses. And parties I didn't attend.

And then the first ice hung like spider lattices

Or the embroideries of Great Aunt No One,

And then the first dark entering the trees—

And inside, the adults with their cocktails before dinner,

The way they always seemed afraid of something,

And sat so rigidly, although the land was theirs.

ADOLESCENCE

—for Sharon and Earl