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Chapters (87)
  1. Cover
  2. Widdershins
  3. Author’s Note
  4. The Dispute at the Crossroads
  5. Lizzie Mahone
  6. Geordie Riddell
  7. Galfreya
  8. Jilly Coppercorn
  9. Hand Me Down My Fiddle
  10. Lizzie
  11. Geordie
  12. Lizzie
  13. Jilly
  14. Edgan
  15. Geordie
  16. Grey
  17. Jilly
  18. Bogan Boys
  19. Geordie
  20. Lizzie
  21. Bogan Boys
  22. The Hard Road to Travel
  23. Jilly
  24. Grey
  25. Geordie
  26. Lizzie
  27. Grey
  28. Jilly
  29. Rabedy Collins
  30. Geordie
  31. Grey
  32. Jilly
  33. Big Dan
  34. Honey
  35. Geordie
  36. Grey
  37. Jilly
  38. Lizzie
  39. Rabedy
  40. Geordie
  41. Timony Twotot
  42. Honey
  43. Joseph Crazy Dog
  44. Cassandra Washington
  45. Christiana Tree
  46. Galfreya
  47. Rabedy
  48. Grey
  49. Whiskey Jack
  50. Far from Home
  51. Lizzie
  52. Geordie
  53. Honey
  54. Grey
  55. Christiana
  56. Jilly
  57. Rabedy
  58. Timony
  59. Walker
  60. Joe
  61. Jilly
  62. Galfreya
  63. Grey
  64. Jilly
  65. Lizzie
  66. Geordie
  67. Joe
  68. Grey
  69. Jilly
  70. Joe
  71. Jilly
  72. Joe
  73. Geordie
  74. Rabedy
  75. Jilly
  76. Joe
  77. Jilly
  78. Joe
  79. Jilly
  80. Farewell and Remember Me
  81. Geordie
  82. Lizzie
  83. Joe
  84. Grey
  85. Lizzie
  86. Jilly
  87. Grey

“Thank you,” she said, not quite sure what else to say. She’d always been bad at condolences. “I’m so sorry for your loss.”

His sigh of response held a world of sorrow and hurt.

“A father should not outlive his child,” he said.

“I can’t imagine what that must feel like.”

He dipped his antlers again. “I hope you never do. It . . . there’s an emptiness in me where she once was, and moment by moment it seems to only become larger.” His gaze found hers. “Sharing the gift of her true name with another helps only a little.”

That made Lizzie think of her rescuer.

You don’t need my name.

“Is there something special about names?” she asked.

She saw a quick flash of teeth—a smile, she realized, but it never reached his eyes. It was the smile that you saw at a funeral, when everyone’s trying to be normal, but you know it never will be. Or won’t for a very, very long time.

“Names are everything,” he said. “If you know the full, true name of a thing, it is at your mercy.”

“So it’s rude to ask someone their name.”

That got her another attempt at a smile. “It depends on who’s asking and why. If it’s someone who doesn’t know better . . .”

He shrugged.

“So that’s why he wouldn’t tell me his name,” she said.

She was speaking more to herself, but the deer man lifted his head, his nostrils working.

“I see,” he said. “There were others here—aganesha and a cousin of mine.”

“I guess I mean the cousin. Was he another deer man? He didn’t have antlers.”

The deer man shook his head. “He’d look strange with them, a bird with antlers.”

“A bird . . . ?”

“He’s corbae. My people are cerva. We’re cousins, but not close.”

“I don’t understand.”

“They’re just tribes,” he said. “His people usually sleep through the moon’s rise and set. Mine wander under her stillness because her light feeds our spirits, as food does our bodies. But we’re still cousins. If you need a speaking name for him, he’s been known to answer to Whiskey Grey—or just Grey.”

Lizzie smiled. “You make him sound like a bootlegger.”

“Well, I’ve heard that old jay does like his drink. He has his own sorrows, they say. Old ones. I don’t know the details.”

Neither spoke for a moment. Lizzie looked past the deer man for a moment to see the last part of the moon slip under the horizon.

“I’m dreaming, aren’t I?” she said.

“No. This is Kakagi-aki—your world. The dreamlands lie on the other side of the between.”

“It still feels like dreaming.”

The deer man nodded. “Perhaps it’s better if you see it that way.”