Back When We Were Young
Chapters (58)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. Joey
  6. Joey
  7. Joey
  8. Sarah
  9. Sarah
  10. Joey
  11. Joey
  12. Joey
  13. Joey
  14. Sarah
  15. Joey
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  17. Sarah
  18. Joey
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  20. Joey
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  22. Joey
  23. Sarah
  24. Joey
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  29. Joey
  30. Joey
  31. Sarah
  32. Sarah
  33. Joey
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  35. Joey
  36. Joey
  37. Sarah
  38. Sarah
  39. Joey
  40. Joey
  41. Joey
  42. Sarah
  43. Joey
  44. Joey
  45. Chapter Forty-One
  46. Joey
  47. Sarah
  48. Joey
  49. Joey
  50. Joey
  51. Joey
  52. Reading Group Guide
  53. Letter to Readers
  54. Discussion Questions
  55. Historical Note
  56. Acknowledgments
  57. Discover More
  58. About the Author

“Boats?” Think of something to say about boats, Joey. “Boats are really…wet and cool.”

Wet and cool? She’d wanted to be cool for this boy, somehow, but she suspected she hadn’t achieved it.

Leo started down the stairs after his parents, but then paused and turned back. He stared at Joey straight-on so that eventually his green eyes consumed everything else. “I made up a secret language this year. If you want, I can teach it to you.”

“Really?” Joey’s heart soared. “Sure!”

“Okay.” Leo nodded. “Gagoose then. That means see you later.”

“Gagoose.” She smiled a little at him, and he smiled back, and she felt in their gaze that there had been some kind of test, followed by a mutual understanding that she’d passed.

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Sidari, on Corfu’s rocky western coast, revealed itself in a sweep of endless beauty that felt wrong, twisted. Joey and Leo dismounted the bike in quiet and followed the blacktop trail to a secluded pocket of flat, sandy rock. The water glittered calm and green below.

Leo said, “I’m gonna walk a little.” He struck off. Joey shed her cover-up, squinting at Leo through the glare of the sun. His back was to her, shoulders slumped. At some point, he moved farther, a speck against the Monet-idyllic watercolor of a day. If they were intimate already, if even they’d kissed, it might have been different. Joey might have known how to touch him. But she didn’t, so she sunned alone for a bit, her towel a too-thin barrier against the scorching rock.

Finally, Joey climbed down to the sand, pausing to investigate a colony of clams. Then she waded into the sea, out to a shallow reef hosting clusters of spiky, purple sea urchins—but nothing could distract her from the sick feeling that Leo’s parents didn’t really want him. Sure, her own mother could be a trip, to put it lightly. But Bea wanted Joey, and she wanted Lily—and so did their father.

Periodically, Joey started in the water, her eyes seeking reassurance that Leo was still out there somewhere. She’d thrash a bit and then latch onto him and calm. After she’d exhausted her capacity for swimming, she waded back to shore and sat for what seemed like an eternity on a rock, waiting. It was only when the sun went down though that Leo finally returned.

“Ready?” His tone betrayed nothing.

On their way home, they stopped for gelato by St. George’s Bay.

“I’m sorry,” said Leo as they waited in line. He rubbed his eyes, the green of them not their usual lively but deadened, like a lawn that hadn’t been watered all summer.

“For what?” said Joey. “Leo, they can’t have meant—”