Back When We Were Young
Chapters (58)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. Joey
  6. Joey
  7. Joey
  8. Sarah
  9. Sarah
  10. Joey
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  14. Sarah
  15. Joey
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  17. Sarah
  18. Joey
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  23. Sarah
  24. Joey
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  31. Sarah
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  33. Joey
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  36. Joey
  37. Sarah
  38. Sarah
  39. Joey
  40. Joey
  41. Joey
  42. Sarah
  43. Joey
  44. Joey
  45. Chapter Forty-One
  46. Joey
  47. Sarah
  48. Joey
  49. Joey
  50. Joey
  51. Joey
  52. Reading Group Guide
  53. Letter to Readers
  54. Discussion Questions
  55. Historical Note
  56. Acknowledgments
  57. Discover More
  58. About the Author

“He’s such a cool kid, Jones.” Leo smiled a smile she knew well—his lips pressed together, the light oozing out his eyes. “He’s seven. I met his mom when we worked a Med season together. I was the first officer then, and she was a stew. Janna’s her name.”

Janna. Joey cycled that name through her stuffed file of inconsequential factoids accumulated from Facebook-stalking Leo’s profile came up dry. She felt stupid, and a little sad, at how far off Leo’s reality was from the fiction she’d spun, of his cavorting with the supermodel, graduates-of-Ivies girls on his friends list.

“Anyway, it didn’t work out, but we got Arthur, and he’s amazing, the most inquisitive kid. He won’t stop asking questions.”

“Sounds like someone I know.”

“Yeah. Takes after his Old Man. Sometimes you want to be like, Arthur, buddy, give me a breather, but he has to know things. Everything. Why sometimes people cry and say they’re okay when they’re not really okay. How a weed is different from a plant.” Leo shook his head. “God, I love that kid.”

"So when you’re in season, he’s with—”

“His mom. Yeah. We both rent apartments on the same street in Monaco. When I’m gone, I FaceTime with Arthur of course, but the distance is hard on us both. It’s funny, Arthur’s into ballet these days—”

“Ballet? That’s awesome.”

“He’s obsessed. He’s teaching me how to plié.” Leo stood and did a bouncy thing with his toes turned out.

Joey giggled. “Do that again, please.”

“Sorry, Jones, that ends the entertainment portion of this boat ride.”

“Given the evidence, I think Arthur needs to up his teaching game.”

“Yeah.” Leo looked out distantly to sea. “Well, he’s not here to teach me. He had a recital recently, and he was so bummed I wasn’t there. Janna had me on FaceTime, but the connection kept cutting out, and I missed his big solo. Later he was like, Did you see me, Dad?, and I pretended I had, but I wasn’t describing his big leap or whatever, or how elongated he had his arm, and he knew. He knew. And you know what, Jones? I felt just like my father.”

“Come on, Leo, you’re nothing like Rand. I may not have seen you in fifteen years, or with Arthur, but if you ask me what I know for sure, it’s that you’re a good dad.”

“I don’t know, Jones. I really don’t. What if that’s just what I tell myself to be able to live with myself? Because the truth is, I’m not around a lot. I’m out here.”

“You’re working to provide for Arthur. And you’re there when it counts.”

“Maybe. I like to think being out at sea makes me a better dad. You know how I am…”