Tess nods. “It’d make sense, right? Our families are all well off, too.”

I remember something. “He grouped all the Aussies together.”

Sheetal lets out a breath. “Well, that probably confirms the theory. He’s giving every group an advantage. Like a commonality somewhere. Being a fresher is hard enough, maybe the fella wants to ease some of the stresses on our first year.”

“He is my nicest prof,” I say.

“Mine, too,” Tess agrees.

The music in the pub changes to a popular Arctic Monkeys song as I sip my beer. The liquid goes down bitter. Garrison loves this band.

“Oh no,” Tess says. “You have that look, Willow.”

“What look?” I ask and reach for a fry.

“Relationship trouble,” Tess says. “Are you missing your boyfriend?” I only briefly told them about Garrison because the more I talk about him, the more I long for him to be beside me.

I’m waiting for the day where that doesn’t happen. Where it doesn’t hurt. But I’m also terrified if that day finally comes.

“I wish he were here,” I admit. “Garrison and I have been through a lot together.”

Salvatore comes back to our table and takes the opened seat beside me. He sets his whiskey down along with a basket of something fried-looking. “What are we talking about?” he asks.

“Willow’s boyfriend,” Sheetal says.

Salvatore swings his head to me. “The one in Philadelphia?”

“That would be the one.” I point to the basket. “What’s that?” I whip out my phone to take a pic. New food. New experiences. College success, but why do I feel so badly about it? My stomach twisting.

“Pork scratchings,” Salvatore says.

“Or for us Americans, pork rinds,” Tess adds and takes a couple.

“Do you have a pic of him?” Sheetal asks me.

I nod and scroll through my photos, landing on one where he’s in his usual black hoodie. Only the hood is down, so you can see more of his face. Hair brushes his eyelashes. Messy like that. We’re standing in front of a Groot cut-out in the movie theater, his arm around my waist.

The sinking in my stomach intensifies.

I understand now.

I’m at a pub. Trying new food. Drinking with new friends. Garrison is alone in Philadelphia. Either working himself to the point of exhaustion or in his apartment trying to fend off Jared, his fame-seeking neighbor. Guilt. It assaults me tenfold.

I pass the phone to Sheetal. Tess leans over her shoulder to see the screen, too.

“Willow, you like the bad boys,” Tess says into a grin.

“What?” I frown. “How can you tell?” It’s not like Garrison is wearing a sign that says I’ve done some questionable things in my past…right?

Tess and Sheetal laugh lightly.

“I couldn’t tell,” Tess admits, “but now we know.”

Sheetal hands the cell back and smiles. “You and your lad look like a knockout together, of absolute cuteness.”

“Thanks,” I mumble and pocket it.

Salvatore looks me over in a slow appraisal like he’s trying to figure me out. “How is he bad, exactly?”