Shit.

Should I stop reading this? I skim the next question instinctively.

I’m in way too deep.

Fallen out of love: I’ve never fallen in love to fall out of it

Yeah well, in high school, love is for liars.

At least, that’s how I feel.

Found out who your true friends are: this is why I keep my circle small. Maggie is the truest friend there ever could be.

How small is small? And Maggie must be the girl she tagged in this questionnaire.

Lost glasses: multiple times. My little sis sometimes takes them to be funny.

That’s not funny.

Sex on the first date: …idk maybe I’d do it? Thinking about it makes me nervous…

The hairs on my neck bristle. I figured she was a virgin if she’s never been kissed, but this causes a wave of panic. I reread that line over and over idk maybe I’d do it?

It makes me nervous that she’d even contemplate doing it if she’s nervous about it.

Like, why?

And I know why. I know how guys are. I know sex.

I know what it feels like being pressured into something that you don’t want to do. I mean, it’s never happened to me with sex, but yeah…I know pressure.

idk maybe I’d do it. Thinking about it makes me nervous…

Shit.

Been arrested: in a nightmare

I actually laugh, my lips rising.

I glance at the storage room door to see if anyone heard, but it’s just me here. No heavy footsteps or knocking yet.

Turned someone down: for what? Like dating?

Yeah, I didn’t fucking get that question either.

Fallen for a friend: no. I don’t like the guys at my school like that (you wouldn’t either if you were me)

What the hell does that mean? I shift my weight on the ground, uncomfortable all of a sudden. And it takes me a moment to realize that I’m uncomfortable for her. Were they pricks? Were they aggressive? I’m just picturing assholes running around her school like uncaged gorillas.

More questions…

Do you have any pets: my dad hates pets, but when he moved out a year ago, my mom let Ellie get a hamster. It smells really bad

Hamsters are gross.

What did you do for your last birthday party: ate out at the Noodle House with just my mom, sister and Maggie. I don’t like big parties, especially not ones about me

This one rips at me a little bit. Last time I had a small party—with only three people attending—was, well, never. I’d usually invite most everyone in my grade. Even when I was three and four and five, it’d be huge. I didn’t want to be alone on that day—though I’d always sneak out early midway through.

Name something you cannot wait for: A REBOOT OF NEW X-MEN (PLEASE HAPPEN!!! I’LL TAKE ANYTHING!!!) Also, for Maggie to meet Scarlet Witch (aka Elizabeth Olsen) one day.

Again, she really likes comics.

What irritates you: being forced to speak up in large crowds