Back What You Can See From Here
Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication Page
  3. Prologue
  4. Part One
  5. MEADOW, MEADOW
  6. THE OPTICIAN’S LOVE
  7. AN AS-YET-UNDISCOVERED LAND MAMMAL
  8. MON CHÉRI
  9. WITH DEEPEST SYMPATHIES
  10. SEX WITH RENATA BLOWS MY MIND
  11. IT’S BEAUTIFUL HERE
  12. EMPLOYEE OF THE MONTH
  13. THE TWENTY-NINTH HOUR
  14. Part Two
  15. SOMEONE OUTSIDE
  16. OPEN THE DOOR
  17. IT’S LIKE THIS
  18. I JUST WANTED TO ASK HOW ALASKA IS DOING
  19. EXPIRATION DATES
  20. IVY FROM ELSBETH’S POINT OF VIEW
  21. FELICITÀ
  22. SIXTY-FIVE PERCENT
  23. ONE THOUSAND YEARS AT SEA
  24. THE BLUE WHALE’S HEAVY HEART
  25. BIOLUMINESCENCE
  26. ANIMALS CAN SENSE THESE THINGS
  27. SEE ABOVE
  28. NO NEW INFORMATION
  29. Part Three
  30. ENDLESS EXPANSES
  31. CHASING AWAY THE DEER
  32. ON INTIMATE TERMS WITH THE WORLD
  33. IT WAS YOU
  34. HENRY, THE COACH IS BREAKING
  35. OKAPIA JOHNSTONI
  36. SINCE YOU’RE ALREADY LYING HERE
  37. THE OPPOSITE IS TRUE
  38. FREDERIK
  39. EPILOGUE
  40. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  41. A NOTE ON THE AUTHOR
  42. A NOTE ABOUT THE TRANSLATOR

The optician was measuring his field of vision. In front of him he saw nothing other than light gray with a friendly red spot in the center of a limited area the shape of a half sphere. At the edge of his field of vision were smaller, flashing dots, which the optician indicated he had seen. Sticking his head in the hemisphere and confirming that the flashing dots were there reassured him.

Selma passed Elsbeth’s house. Elsbeth, also still in black, stood in her garden with a leaf blower. She held the blower up to the apple tree. It was April and the leaves were accordingly young.

“What are you doing?” Selma shouted over the roar of the leaf blower.

Elsbeth did not turn to face her. “I want time to pass,” she shouted. “I want it to be autumn already. The autumn after the autumn after this one.”

It didn’t occur to the leaves to let themselves be blown off their branches. They were young and strong. They didn’t understand what Elsbeth had in mind and didn’t feel in the least bit threatened; in fact, they felt like they were getting a blow-dry.

“Put it on turbo,” Selma suggested. Elsbeth didn’t hear her.

“And what are you doing?” she called loudly without turning around.

“I’m carrying Luisa,” Selma shouted back, and Elsbeth answered, “That’s good, too.”

Selma nodded at Elsbeth’s back and continued on to Palm’s house.

Selma had briefly considered letting the dogs starve. Palm had not fed them for days. Since Martin’s death he had not left his house, not even for the funeral. Selma had wanted to bring him to the funeral since she suspected he would not come. She went to his house. Famished, the dogs bayed even louder than usual. She had slipped past them, knocked, and rung the bell, but Palm had not answered the door.

“Palm, you have to come,” she had finally yelled up from under his kitchen window. Then she had cleared her throat and added, “You have to carry his coffin.” As she shouted this last sentence, she had squeezed her eyes shut. Such a sentence should never be shouted; even in a whisper it would be too loud. “There’s no other way, Palm,” Selma had shouted then, twice.

Palm had not opened the door and so there was another way.

Now, standing before Palm’s house, Selma briefly thought of going back to Elsbeth, back to the optician, so they could help her with the bologna slices. She decided it was too much trouble.