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Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication Page
  3. Prologue
  4. Part One
  5. MEADOW, MEADOW
  6. THE OPTICIAN’S LOVE
  7. AN AS-YET-UNDISCOVERED LAND MAMMAL
  8. MON CHÉRI
  9. WITH DEEPEST SYMPATHIES
  10. SEX WITH RENATA BLOWS MY MIND
  11. IT’S BEAUTIFUL HERE
  12. EMPLOYEE OF THE MONTH
  13. THE TWENTY-NINTH HOUR
  14. Part Two
  15. SOMEONE OUTSIDE
  16. OPEN THE DOOR
  17. IT’S LIKE THIS
  18. I JUST WANTED TO ASK HOW ALASKA IS DOING
  19. EXPIRATION DATES
  20. IVY FROM ELSBETH’S POINT OF VIEW
  21. FELICITÀ
  22. SIXTY-FIVE PERCENT
  23. ONE THOUSAND YEARS AT SEA
  24. THE BLUE WHALE’S HEAVY HEART
  25. BIOLUMINESCENCE
  26. ANIMALS CAN SENSE THESE THINGS
  27. SEE ABOVE
  28. NO NEW INFORMATION
  29. Part Three
  30. ENDLESS EXPANSES
  31. CHASING AWAY THE DEER
  32. ON INTIMATE TERMS WITH THE WORLD
  33. IT WAS YOU
  34. HENRY, THE COACH IS BREAKING
  35. OKAPIA JOHNSTONI
  36. SINCE YOU’RE ALREADY LYING HERE
  37. THE OPPOSITE IS TRUE
  38. FREDERIK
  39. EPILOGUE
  40. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  41. A NOTE ON THE AUTHOR
  42. A NOTE ABOUT THE TRANSLATOR

“God’s merciful blessings,” I said.

“Next message,” the answering machine announced.

“God’s merciful blessings,” Palm said.

“Rödder here.” Mr. Rödder spoke very quickly because he knew the answering machine well. “It’s Monday evening, six fifty-seven. You left the store a few minutes ago. I’d like to let you know that I have decided to grant your request for time off this coming week as a rare exception—” and the answering machine cut him off. Then Frederik said, “It’s me.”

“Frederik,” I said.

“Don’t be alarmed, Luisa,” Frederik said. “I wanted to tell you—” The answering machine cut him off because it did not discriminate—everyone was equal in the eyes of this answering machine—and I was alarmed by Frederik’s request that I not be alarmed. He’s not coming, I thought. He’s about to tell me that he isn’t coming.

“Next message,” the answering machine announced.

“As I was saying, I wanted to tell you there’s been a change in plans.” And the answering machine cut him off and said, “Your connection is maintained,” then announced the next message. And I thought, Frederik’s not coming; the connection has not been maintained. And Frederik said, “I’m coming today. In fact, I’m almost there.”

Then he was silent. The answering machine was silent, too, and did not cut him off. Maybe the answering machine was also blindsided by this message, thrown off its egalitarian disinterest, maybe it had no idea, either, what to do after receiving such a message, and therefore unintentionally did exactly the right thing—in other words, it kept recording.

Alaska and I stared at the blinking light. We stared at Frederik’s silence, and I tried to grasp that Frederik was almost here.

“I was expecting to be cut off,” Frederik finally said. “I’m sorry I wasn’t able to let you know sooner. I hope it’s all right with you. See you soon, Luisa.”

“End of message,” the answering machine said quickly, “end of message, end of message.” And then, exceptionally, to be absolutely certain, it repeated a fourth time, “end of message.”

I dialed the number almost everyone I knew dialed in an emergency.

Selma answered after the third ring. It always took a while before the receiver reached her ear. On the other end of the line you heard nothing but a protracted rustling, as if the receiver were a detector that first had to scan Selma’s entire body before it finally reached her ear.

“Hello?” Selma finally said.

“Frederik is coming,” I said.

“I know that.” Selma sighed. “Next week.”

Alaska looked at me. My voice sounded shrill.

“Calm down,” Selma said. “In fact, it’s actually good news.”

“What is?”

“That he’s almost here.”

“What?”

“It’s exactly what you wanted.”