Back West of the Jordan
Chapters (45)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Make It Delicious
  4. PART ONE
  5. 1 HALA Going Home
  6. 2 MAWAL Nawara
  7. 3 SORAYA Fire
  8. 4 KHADIJA Sand and Fire
  9. PART TWO
  10. 5 HALA Mourning
  11. 6 MAWAL Crossing
  12. 7 SORAYA Visas
  13. 8 MAWAL Flowers from My Roza
  14. 9 KHADIJA School
  15. 10 HALA White
  16. 11 HALA Weddings
  17. 12 SORAYA Success
  18. 13 MAWAL America
  19. 14 KHADIJA Birthday
  20. 15 SORAYA The American Dream
  21. 16 KHADIJA Social Studies
  22. 17 SORAYA Fancy-Dance Man
  23. 18 HALA Sharif
  24. 19 MAWAL Looking
  25. 20 HALA Aqaba
  26. 21 HALA Visiting
  27. 22 MAWAL The Beautiful Gift
  28. 23 KHADIJA Traditions
  29. 24 HALA Dress Up
  30. 25 HALA Backgammon
  31. PART THREE
  32. 26 KHADIJA Sleeping Over
  33. 27 SORAYA Love Story/Remembering Story
  34. 28 KHADIJA Mothers
  35. 29 MAWAL Maziuna
  36. 30 SORAYA Clouds
  37. 31 KHADIJA Long Distance
  38. 32 HALA Old Men
  39. PART FOUR
  40. 33 HALA Naked Underneath
  41. 34 MAWAL Safe
  42. 35 KHADIJA Fire
  43. 36 SORAYA Just Down the Road
  44. 37 HALA Bare Walls
  45. Acknowledgments

Maziuna is staring out the window again.

Shahira grasps her mother’s frail body in an awkward sideways hug. “If only you could see my life now. You would never believe it. I live in such a different world now. I think it would have been better if Monia and Mina and I stayed here, stayed with you like I wanted to. If only you hadn’t thought that marriage was the only answer.” Shahira looks at the window that has her mother’s attention. “Of course, that would mean no tribe of little boys and no Khadija. If only you could see her. She is like a little boy with all her energy and stubbornness.” Again, Shahira stares at the window that looks out over the valley.

“Khadija played in corn,” Maziuna says in a squeaky voice and Shahira stares at her mother as if this is the first time she sees her.

“What?”

“Chickie!” she shouts, and just as she says this Sahar comes in the room.

“I’m right here, Ma,” she says.

Shahira folds herself up and kisses her mother’s forehead before she leaves the room for good. Time to go, she says to herself. Time to go.

One end-of-the-summer day, not long after the old woman’s faraway daughter came to see her, the sky is glorious blue.

Not long after the minaret has called Nawara to pray for the first of five times, the old woman wakes up and waits for her daughter to wash her, to dress her in the soft white gown with the flowers embroidered around the neck, and to wrap a scarf around her head. During all these proceedings, the old woman will hold on to her daughter’s shoulders or arms, eyes wandering off.

The chores are done and the daughter brings her mother bread and yogurt and urges her to eat, and for a change the old woman obliges her, maybe hoping for some peace. After breakfast, she gets up on her own and goes to the window, where she rests her elbows, her body relaxing as the warm air pours in. Eyes start with the orange trees, whose perfume still finds its way to her window, and then move to the shepherd who is on time as he leads his goats onto the far corner of her land. She closes her eyes to make the pictures stay and then opens them again to get more.

The old woman with her head tied up in a gypsy scarf is tired today, tired like wanting to be water and stretch out in the sun. Her thoughts are interrupted by Mawal, her gentle granddaughter, who comes into the room and greets her, just as she does most mornings.

“As-salaamu alaykum, Sitti,” she says and comes over to kiss her grandmother on the hand.

The old woman stares. She likes this girl, this young lady with good manners who always smells of soap.