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Chapters (45)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Make It Delicious
  4. PART ONE
  5. 1 HALA Going Home
  6. 2 MAWAL Nawara
  7. 3 SORAYA Fire
  8. 4 KHADIJA Sand and Fire
  9. PART TWO
  10. 5 HALA Mourning
  11. 6 MAWAL Crossing
  12. 7 SORAYA Visas
  13. 8 MAWAL Flowers from My Roza
  14. 9 KHADIJA School
  15. 10 HALA White
  16. 11 HALA Weddings
  17. 12 SORAYA Success
  18. 13 MAWAL America
  19. 14 KHADIJA Birthday
  20. 15 SORAYA The American Dream
  21. 16 KHADIJA Social Studies
  22. 17 SORAYA Fancy-Dance Man
  23. 18 HALA Sharif
  24. 19 MAWAL Looking
  25. 20 HALA Aqaba
  26. 21 HALA Visiting
  27. 22 MAWAL The Beautiful Gift
  28. 23 KHADIJA Traditions
  29. 24 HALA Dress Up
  30. 25 HALA Backgammon
  31. PART THREE
  32. 26 KHADIJA Sleeping Over
  33. 27 SORAYA Love Story/Remembering Story
  34. 28 KHADIJA Mothers
  35. 29 MAWAL Maziuna
  36. 30 SORAYA Clouds
  37. 31 KHADIJA Long Distance
  38. 32 HALA Old Men
  39. PART FOUR
  40. 33 HALA Naked Underneath
  41. 34 MAWAL Safe
  42. 35 KHADIJA Fire
  43. 36 SORAYA Just Down the Road
  44. 37 HALA Bare Walls
  45. Acknowledgments

“Describe him, please!”

“Oh, I see, my child.” Abu Salwan leans forward and looks in my eyes. “This ifreet was disguised,” he says in a quiet voice. The alley is quiet now too. “It was long, longer than a man’s foot. It was thin as a child’s wrist, black as the night ... and with as many legs as all of the villagers together.”

Fawziyya and I look at each other and then at Abu Salwan, who wears a sneaky smile. “This is not the ifreet we know, Abu Salwan.”

“I told you, my girls, this ifreet was disguised to look like some sort of creature.” His voice is a whisper now. “And it seems that the ifreet has come to visit us.”

He points to a spot not three feet from where we are sitting, where a giant millipede wanders across the floor.

Screams break the silence of the night, followed by the deep laugh of a man who knows stories as well as he knows the desert and its creatures.

PART THREE

PART THREE

26 KHADIJA Sleeping Over

26KHADIJASleeping Over

Patsy asked me to a slumber party, and when I asked Ma she refused.

“You are not going to sleep anywhere outside this family until the day you are married.”

I didn’t argue. I knew that was what she was going to say. And even if she had said yes, Baba would probably have hit me just for asking.

When I told Patsy, she laughed. “How are you ever going to have sex with a boy if you always have to sleep at home?”

I felt funny, like she was laughing at me. I had never thought about sex with a boy before I got married. I know that American girls do that, and probably even my cousin Soraya, but that’s different.

Baba yells so much, mostly at the boys. He only gets mad at me if he’s been drinking or when I do something really bad—like the time he caught me with my brother and my cousin Tariq in the closet lighting matches. It wasn’t even one of those big closets, but I guess we were so small we all fit nice and cozy. We were pretending that we were in the woods having a campfire.

When Baba found us, he yelled, “You are the shame of this family, trying to burn the house around you. Your mothers would have been better off if they had goats instead of you children!”

He got Muhammad first and hit him all over with his belt, and then Tariq. Both of them were screaming. Then he hit me with the belt and I screamed and cried for hours.

He yells at Ma a lot too. Ma just stands there and mutters words I don’t understand. I feel sorry for her.