Subject: Re: I’m having second thoughts

Fuck your second thoughts.

Fuck your honesty. I don’t need your honesty. I need your love, and I foolishly thought it was mine all this time.

I can’t believe you’re doing this to me.

I’m not some car battery you use for a couple thousand miles and then send off to the junkyard, you fucking cunt.

I know exactly what you’re trying to do.

You’re trying to abandon me with our child. The one you wanted as well.

This life inside me is ours. No matter what you say. No matter what you think.

It’s always going to be ours.

EMAIL FROM ZOE CROSS

Date: 08/17/2000

Time: 8:43 a.m.

From: Zoe Cross <crushedmarigolds@[omitted].com>

To: Agnes Petrella <agnes_in_wonderland_76@[omitted].com>

Subject: Re: I’m having second thoughts

I’ve tried to reason with you and look where it’s gotten me.

Agnes, you’re sick and you need help.

If you’re going to continue to be so monstrous, then I have no choice but to cut all communication with you.

As far as I’m concerned, our contract is null and void.

Do not reach out to me as I will not be responding.

I sincerely hope you get the help that you need.

EMAIL FROM ZOE CROSS

Date: 08/17/2000

Time: 8:56 a.m.

From: Zoe Cross <crushedmarigolds@[omitted].com>

To: Agnes Petrella <agnes_in_wonderland_76@[omitted].com>

Subject: Re: I’m having second thoughts

I think I did once love you.

I think I could have loved you.

But not like this.

Never like this.

EMAIL FROM AGNES PETRELLA

Date: 08/18/2000

Time: 11:09 a.m.

From: Agnes Petrella <agnes_in_wonderland_76@[omitted].com>

To: Zoe Cross <crushedmarigolds@[omitted].com>

Subject: Re: I’m having second thoughts

You’ll never leave me. You love me too much.

You love our child too much.

I know you’ll respond. You always will.

Because you know the life I’m carrying inside me belongs to you.

I thought of you last night.

I slept without clothes on, as we had agreed upon. The AC was running on full blast.

I didn’t even care how cold it was.

I just thought of how it would feel to have you lying next to me – our child coiled inside my stomach.

EMAIL FROM AGNES PETRELLA

Date: 08/19/2000

Time: 7:43 p.m.

From: Agnes Petrella <agnes_in_wonderland_76@[omitted].com>

To: Zoe Cross <crushedmarigolds@[omitted].com>

Subject: Re: I’m having second thoughts

Please respond. It’s been days since we last talked.

I want things to go back to how they were.

If you’d like me to get help, I’ll get it.

Anything you say.

Just please talk to me. I can’t bear being apart from you.

EMAIL FROM AGNES PETRELLA

Date: 08/20/2000

Time: 9:33 p.m.

From: Agnes Petrella <agnes_in_wonderland_76@[omitted].com>

To: Zoe Cross <crushedmarigolds@[omitted].com>

Subject: Something’s wrong