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Chapters (53)
  1. The Source
  2. Dedication
  3. Contents
  4. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  5. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1996
  6. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  7. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1996
  8. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  9. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1996
  10. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  11. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1996
  12. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  13. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1996
  14. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  15. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1996
  16. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  17. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1996
  18. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  19. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1997
  20. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  21. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1997
  22. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  23. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1997
  24. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  25. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1997
  26. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  27. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1997
  28. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  29. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1997
  30. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  31. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1997
  32. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  33. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1997
  34. Carly ~ Warchester ~ 1998
  35. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  36. Carly ~ London ~ 2001
  37. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  38. Carly ~ London ~ 2001
  39. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  40. Carly ~ London ~ 2001
  41. Marie ~ Just outside Warchester ~ 2006
  42. Carly ~ London ~ 2001
  43. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  44. Carly ~ Deptford ~ 2002
  45. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  46. Marie ~ Deptford ~ 2004
  47. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  48. Marie ~ London ~ 2005
  49. Marie ~ London ~ 2006
  50. Marie ~ London ~ Six months later
  51. Acknowledgements
  52. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  53. Copyright

‘Social services have been round again, have they?’

‘Yeah,’ I say, gulping from my can. ‘They’re supposed to be coming twice a week since the hospital. I’ve been at school though. At least most of the time. Julie said she’s depressed.’

‘Julie?’ she interrupts me. ‘Who the fuck is Julie?’

‘One of the social workers,’ I splutter, bubbles sticking in my throat. I drank too fast. ‘Remember? That nurse from the hospital. And the clinic. The one who thought you were my sister. She shows up with them sometimes … What?’

Rach cracks her knuckles before smacking a hand on the desk.

‘She says Ma can’t take care of herself because she’s depressed,’ I continue, tensing my hand round the can. It’s still nice and cold. ‘Like she’s so sad all the time that she doesn’t even care if Kayleigh’s wet herself, or if she’s eaten nothing but beans from the tin all week, even if Jase has brought us better stuff.’

‘She’s been asking you questions and all?’

‘A few,’ I say, taking another swig. ‘I know her game though, don’t I? It’s easy … I just tell her what she wants to hear.’

‘What about Kayleigh? Has she been OK?’

‘You know she has,’ I say, swallowing. ‘She’s still coughing like she’s a dog or something, but that medicine you brought us is the business. She loves it too, can’t get to the spoon fast enough. She sleeps better too, out like a light – bang. Nothing wakes her, not even the army jets. Where did you get it?’ I drain the rest of my can.

‘Doesn’t matter,’ she says, reaching for her coat hung on the back 156of the door. ‘So long as it’s still nice and tidy. Good job, girl. Not doing too badly, are we? Jobs, wheels, cash, the whole bloody lot.’

I snort as she fiddles with her zip. ‘So what’s up with tonight,’ I say, crunching the can into my fist.

‘Jase’s back,’ she says, bending for her bag. ‘Just got the call, didn’t I?’

‘What’s he doing, calling you?’ I toss the can into the overflowing bin in the corner.

‘You were at school.’ She looks up. I pull my blazer around myself.

‘So what’s up with Jase?’ I shake my head as she offers me a tab.

‘Checking in, you know, the usual,’ she says, squeezing through the outer door into the alley behind the row of shops. ‘Look lively, will you?’ She jangles the bunch of keys in her hand.

I push past her, wincing as puddle water flicks on to my bare legs. It’s so narrow there’s no choice about where to stand if I don’t want to step on her feet. There’s a clang and a rattle as the back door bolt finally closes. We pick our way up the alley towards the road.