I walk around the room barefoot, the engravings on the tombs so old they’re just scratches in the icy stone beneath my feet. I take in each of the twelve Stations of the Cross. Witness Christ’s crucifixion. But when I get to the altar and look up at him, I think about how he could let this happen. How, if God were real, could he let this happen to me? To my dad?

And Hazel.

She’d run away days before her wedding.

How could he let it happen to her?

Or maybe this is his plan. Maybe The Society is right, and God is behind them, and God wants one of the Moreno sisters.

I walk to the back of the church playing with the edge of the lace veil. The confessional is in the same place, and I go to it, touching the rickety old wooden door. Its grooves are dusty. No one uses this confessional anymore, I guess.

Pushing it aside, I enter the little space I’d entered one time before. It’s smaller than I remember. The mesh is metal now, the design a thousand crosses. I always wondered if the priests hearing the confessions knew who we were. If they remembered our sins.

I kneel on that kneeler now, then sit back on the small bench.

“God.”

I wipe my face, then instinctively pull my bangs down over my eye. I remember the look on Mercedes’s face when she’d seen it. Like she’s never seen anything so terrible. Bitch.

I take a deep breath in. The smell in here is different than I expect. A hint of cologne beneath the incense and wood polish. Maybe I’m wrong. Maybe they do still use the confessional.

Sighing, I let my breath out, then close my eyes and place my knees back on that kneeler, bringing my hands together in prayer.

“If you’re there…if you’re real…” A sob breaks into my words, and I use the heels of my hands to wipe my eyes, careful of the mascara and black liner Mercedes applied.

I want to ask him not to let this happen. But that’s stupid. It’s happening. So, I ask a different favor.

I bow my head. “Don’t let him be a monster,” I whisper.

Something creaks.

I gasp, my eyes flying open, and I swear I see movement on the other side of the mesh separating confessor from sinner.

“Father?” I ask, peering closer when he doesn’t answer. “Is someone there?”

I hear the chapel door open, then my brother’s footsteps. It can only be him. “Ivy,” he bellows when he doesn’t see me. “For fuck’s sake, where are you?”