Before we’re even at the top of the stairs, I see the woman I’d met last time come hurrying out of what I guess is the nursery, the screaming little bundle in her arms. Colette rushes to her to take the baby who must sense his mother—or the food source—nearby and his cry changes to a gasping catching of breath as he smashes his head repeatedly against Colette’s breast, his frustration growing again when he can’t get to her breast fast enough.

As I follow Colette, I hear the deep rumble of Marco’s voice but can’t make out what he says before Colette and I are in Ben’s nursery and she’s closed the door behind us.

She relaxes a little as soon as we’re alone and plops down onto the big rocker to feed Ben.

“I can come back. If it’s a bad time,” I say, looking at her worried face.

“No, it’s okay, Ivy. It’s good you’re here. I’m glad.”

I set the bag down and sit on the chair opposite Colette. I take in the room, the walls painted a soft blue, the same mobile hanging over the cradle that Santiago had had delivered to our house.

“We have the same one,” I say to fill the silence. The room overlooks the garden and it’s so peaceful and quiet, so different from the mood downstairs.

“The mobile?” Colette asks.

“Santiago bought it. It’s one of the first things.”

She smiles. “Stand up, let me see you while I get this guy fed. Then you can meet him.”

I do and turn a little so she can see the bump.

“You look beautiful, Ivy. Truly glowing.”

I sit back down. “Thank you. I feel good. Not much nausea and, well, things with Santiago are better so that makes a really big difference.”

“I bet,” she says, her face faltering again. Ben gives a cry and reaches a small hand up to cup her chin. She smiles down at him, using the muslin to wipe milk from the corner of his mouth.

“He’s beautiful, Colette.”

She’s teary-eyed when she looks up at me. “I love him so much already and honestly, I thought I already loved him before he was born but it’s nothing like when you first see his little face. When you first hold him.” She wipes her eyes with the same muslin.

“What’s going on?” I ask, worried.

She glances out the window and shakes her head and I get the feeling she’s replaying a conversation in her head.

Ben falls asleep and she runs a finger over his cheek to rouse him. He starts to suck again as soon as she does.