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Chapters (73)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Anita Frank
  4. Note to Readers
  5. Dedication
  6. Part One
  7. Chapter One
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Chapter Three
  10. Chapter Four
  11. Chapter Five
  12. Chapter Six
  13. Chapter Seven
  14. Chapter Eight
  15. Chapter Nine
  16. Chapter Ten
  17. Chapter Eleven
  18. Chapter Twelve
  19. Chapter Thirteen
  20. Chapter Fourteen
  21. Chapter Fifteen
  22. Chapter Sixteen
  23. Chapter Seventeen
  24. Chapter Eighteen
  25. Chapter Nineteen
  26. Chapter Twenty
  27. Chapter Twenty-One
  28. Chapter Twenty-Two
  29. Chapter Twenty-Three
  30. Chapter Twenty-Four
  31. Chapter Twenty-Five
  32. Chapter Twenty-Six
  33. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  34. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  35. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  36. Chapter Thirty
  37. Chapter Thirty-One
  38. Chapter Thirty-Two
  39. Chapter Thirty-Three
  40. Chapter Thirty-Four
  41. Chapter Thirty-Five
  42. Chapter Thirty-Six
  43. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  44. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  45. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  46. Chapter Forty
  47. Part Two
  48. Chapter Forty-One
  49. Chapter Forty-Two
  50. Chapter Forty-Three
  51. Chapter Forty-Four
  52. Chapter Forty-Five
  53. Chapter Forty-Six
  54. Chapter Forty-Seven
  55. Chapter Forty-Eight
  56. Chapter Forty-Nine
  57. Chapter Fifty
  58. Chapter Fifty-One
  59. Chapter Fifty-Two
  60. Chapter Fifty-Three
  61. Chapter Fifty-Four
  62. Chapter Fifty-Five
  63. Chapter Fifty-Six
  64. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  65. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  66. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  67. Chapter Sixty
  68. Acknowledgements
  69. Extract
  70. Chapter One
  71. Chapter Two
  72. Chapter Three
  73. About the Publisher

‘The war isn’t over for everyone, Tom, not yet. We don’t know exactly where Daddy is right now … And a lot can happen …’

‘But … he will come back … if he can? He will want to see me, won’t he?’

‘Oh Tom, of course, he would want to see you.’ She cups his cheek in her palm. Sensing his sudden vulnerability, she pulls him against her, closing her eyes as she breathes in the scent of his hair, soft against her cheek.

‘I hope my daddy comes home.’

Muffled against her chest, his little wish pierces her heart, and as he pulls free from her embrace, Gwen hates herself a little more.

In her own room, she sheds her work clothes and sloshes water into the bowl from the ewer. She rubs her face with a moistened flannel, roughly wiping away the day’s dirt ingrained in her pores, before running it around her neck and under her arms. It is so much harder to cleanse herself of the guilt evoked by Tom’s wish. She wipes until her skin is red, then throws the flannel back into the water, where it sinks below the surface. She thinks of Muriel’s words of warning, of her father’s disappointment and now of Tom’s hopes, and her stomach roils. She is unsure whether she has the strength to face her neighbours. The thought of their well-meant enquiries terrifies her.

She has no choice, she tells herself. To not go would merely be delaying the inevitable – inescapable questions are bound to come, sooner or later – but she must go prepared. Forewarned is forearmed after all.

She slides a cotton slip over her head, then wrenches open the wardrobe door. The swan-necked coat hangers scrape against the metal pole as she rifles through her sparse selection of clothes. She deliberates over a navy dress. She bought it long before the war, but Nora – who has proven herself to be surprisingly skilled with the Singer – has modified it, nipping in the waist, bringing up the hem, until it is almost in fashion. It will do, she decides.

Once she has zipped herself in, she stands before the wardrobe’s mirrored door and smooths down the fabric. The evening rays straining through the window catch the gold band on her left finger. Transfixed, she raises her hand to study it, as if strangely startled by its existence, doubtful of her own eyes. But there it is – dull now, and forever binding.