Chapters (73)
- Cover
- About the Author
- Also by Anita Frank
- Note to Readers
- Dedication
- Part One
- Chapter One
- Chapter Two
- Chapter Three
- Chapter Four
- Chapter Five
- Chapter Six
- Chapter Seven
- Chapter Eight
- Chapter Nine
- Chapter Ten
- Chapter Eleven
- Chapter Twelve
- Chapter Thirteen
- Chapter Fourteen
- Chapter Fifteen
- Chapter Sixteen
- Chapter Seventeen
- Chapter Eighteen
- Chapter Nineteen
- Chapter Twenty
- Chapter Twenty-One
- Chapter Twenty-Two
- Chapter Twenty-Three
- Chapter Twenty-Four
- Chapter Twenty-Five
- Chapter Twenty-Six
- Chapter Twenty-Seven
- Chapter Twenty-Eight
- Chapter Twenty-Nine
- Chapter Thirty
- Chapter Thirty-One
- Chapter Thirty-Two
- Chapter Thirty-Three
- Chapter Thirty-Four
- Chapter Thirty-Five
- Chapter Thirty-Six
- Chapter Thirty-Seven
- Chapter Thirty-Eight
- Chapter Thirty-Nine
- Chapter Forty
- Part Two
- Chapter Forty-One
- Chapter Forty-Two
- Chapter Forty-Three
- Chapter Forty-Four
- Chapter Forty-Five
- Chapter Forty-Six
- Chapter Forty-Seven
- Chapter Forty-Eight
- Chapter Forty-Nine
- Chapter Fifty
- Chapter Fifty-One
- Chapter Fifty-Two
- Chapter Fifty-Three
- Chapter Fifty-Four
- Chapter Fifty-Five
- Chapter Fifty-Six
- Chapter Fifty-Seven
- Chapter Fifty-Eight
- Chapter Fifty-Nine
- Chapter Sixty
- Acknowledgements
- Extract
- Chapter One
- Chapter Two
- Chapter Three
- About the Publisher
‘The war isn’t over for everyone, Tom, not yet. We don’t know exactly where Daddy is right now … And a lot can happen …’
‘But … he will come back … if he can? He will want to see me, won’t he?’
‘Oh Tom, of course, he would want to see you.’ She cups his cheek in her palm. Sensing his sudden vulnerability, she pulls him against her, closing her eyes as she breathes in the scent of his hair, soft against her cheek.
‘I hope my daddy comes home.’
Muffled against her chest, his little wish pierces her heart, and as he pulls free from her embrace, Gwen hates herself a little more.
In her own room, she sheds her work clothes and sloshes water into the bowl from the ewer. She rubs her face with a moistened flannel, roughly wiping away the day’s dirt ingrained in her pores, before running it around her neck and under her arms. It is so much harder to cleanse herself of the guilt evoked by Tom’s wish. She wipes until her skin is red, then throws the flannel back into the water, where it sinks below the surface. She thinks of Muriel’s words of warning, of her father’s disappointment and now of Tom’s hopes, and her stomach roils. She is unsure whether she has the strength to face her neighbours. The thought of their well-meant enquiries terrifies her.
She has no choice, she tells herself. To not go would merely be delaying the inevitable – inescapable questions are bound to come, sooner or later – but she must go prepared. Forewarned is forearmed after all.
She slides a cotton slip over her head, then wrenches open the wardrobe door. The swan-necked coat hangers scrape against the metal pole as she rifles through her sparse selection of clothes. She deliberates over a navy dress. She bought it long before the war, but Nora – who has proven herself to be surprisingly skilled with the Singer – has modified it, nipping in the waist, bringing up the hem, until it is almost in fashion. It will do, she decides.
Once she has zipped herself in, she stands before the wardrobe’s mirrored door and smooths down the fabric. The evening rays straining through the window catch the gold band on her left finger. Transfixed, she raises her hand to study it, as if strangely startled by its existence, doubtful of her own eyes. But there it is – dull now, and forever binding.