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Chapters (73)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Anita Frank
  4. Note to Readers
  5. Dedication
  6. Part One
  7. Chapter One
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Chapter Three
  10. Chapter Four
  11. Chapter Five
  12. Chapter Six
  13. Chapter Seven
  14. Chapter Eight
  15. Chapter Nine
  16. Chapter Ten
  17. Chapter Eleven
  18. Chapter Twelve
  19. Chapter Thirteen
  20. Chapter Fourteen
  21. Chapter Fifteen
  22. Chapter Sixteen
  23. Chapter Seventeen
  24. Chapter Eighteen
  25. Chapter Nineteen
  26. Chapter Twenty
  27. Chapter Twenty-One
  28. Chapter Twenty-Two
  29. Chapter Twenty-Three
  30. Chapter Twenty-Four
  31. Chapter Twenty-Five
  32. Chapter Twenty-Six
  33. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  34. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  35. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  36. Chapter Thirty
  37. Chapter Thirty-One
  38. Chapter Thirty-Two
  39. Chapter Thirty-Three
  40. Chapter Thirty-Four
  41. Chapter Thirty-Five
  42. Chapter Thirty-Six
  43. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  44. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  45. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  46. Chapter Forty
  47. Part Two
  48. Chapter Forty-One
  49. Chapter Forty-Two
  50. Chapter Forty-Three
  51. Chapter Forty-Four
  52. Chapter Forty-Five
  53. Chapter Forty-Six
  54. Chapter Forty-Seven
  55. Chapter Forty-Eight
  56. Chapter Forty-Nine
  57. Chapter Fifty
  58. Chapter Fifty-One
  59. Chapter Fifty-Two
  60. Chapter Fifty-Three
  61. Chapter Fifty-Four
  62. Chapter Fifty-Five
  63. Chapter Fifty-Six
  64. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  65. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  66. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  67. Chapter Sixty
  68. Acknowledgements
  69. Extract
  70. Chapter One
  71. Chapter Two
  72. Chapter Three
  73. About the Publisher

She is at the back door pushing on her gumboots when he returns, the cattle ambling before him, snorting and shitting as they plod towards the pen by the milking parlour. She hurries down the steps to join him, absentmindedly ruffling Kip’s fur as he trots across to greet her. Jack is immediately struck by her pastiness. She catches him up as he closes the five-bar gate on the pen.

‘I’m sorry, Jack.’

‘You look awful.’

She makes no attempt to contradict him, she merely responds with a rueful smile, before heading into the adjacent building. He follows her under the low lintel. She moves slowly, mechanically, collecting her stool and pail, chewing her blanched lips as she buttons up her milking coat.

‘Gwen, if you’re unwell I can manage …’

‘I’m fine. I just … overslept, that’s all.’

‘You look done in.’

‘I’m fine,’ she reiterates, brushing past him to fetch in the first of the herd.

They work in a silence that is broken only by sawing milk, the stomp of an impatient hoof, and the occasional bovine snort.

Jack finishes draining the engorged udder of a cow called Bess. He stands up and slips the halter from her neck, slapping her rump to drive her from the shed. Hooking the pail on the hanging scales, he squints at the flickering needle before recording the figure in the milk ledger. He upends the pail into the cooler, pleased that her yield has increased on the previous day’s. As he sets off down the aisle to bring in the next cow, he passes the stall where Gwen is working. He notices that she is gulping for air.

‘Gwen?’

She leaps to her feet and dashes through the door into the brightening morning. Seconds later, he hears her retching.

He finds her with one hand braced against the wall, while the other rests on her hip as she heaves again. Little more than liquid splatters the bottom bricks.

‘Jesus, Gwen, you should have stayed in bed if you’re sick.’ He places a hand on her back, but she shakes him off.

‘That fish Muriel served last night, I said it smelt funny.’

‘It tasted all right.’

‘It was on the turn. I told her.’

She keeps her face angled away as she wipes her mouth with the back of her hand.

‘Let me get you some water.’

‘No. I’m fine.’

But the words have only just left her when she whirls back to the wall and spews again.

‘You’re not fine, lass. Go on, get yourself inside, I’ll finish up.’

‘It’ll take you ages.’

‘I’ll manage. Get away with you now.’

She considers protesting, but seeing reason, she nods. ‘I’ll just clear this up.’

‘I’ll do it,’ he says gently. ‘Go on now. Get some rest.’

Biting her lip, she takes a few steps towards the house, then stops.

‘Thank you, Jack.’