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Chapters (52)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Chapter One
  4. Chapter Two
  5. Chapter Three
  6. Chapter Four
  7. Chapter Five
  8. Chapter Six
  9. Chapter Seven
  10. Chapter Eight
  11. Chapter Nine
  12. Chapter Ten
  13. Chapter Eleven
  14. Chapter Twelve
  15. Chapter Thirteen
  16. Chapter Fourteen
  17. Chapter Fifteen
  18. Chapter Sixteen
  19. Chapter Seventeen
  20. Chapter Eighteen
  21. Chapter Nineteen
  22. Chapter Twenty
  23. Chapter Twenty-One
  24. Chapter Twenty-Two
  25. Chapter Twenty-Three
  26. Chapter Twenty-Four
  27. Chapter Twenty-Five
  28. Chapter Twenty-Six
  29. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  30. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  31. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  32. Chapter Thirty
  33. Chapter Thirty-One
  34. Chapter Thirty-Two
  35. Chapter Thirty-Three
  36. Chapter Thirty-Four
  37. Chapter Thirty-Five
  38. Chapter Thirty-Six
  39. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  40. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  41. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  42. Chapter Forty
  43. Chapter Forty-One
  44. Chapter Forty-Two
  45. Chapter Forty-Three
  46. Chapter Forty-Four
  47. Chapter Forty-Five
  48. Chapter Forty-Six
  49. Epilogue
  50. Acknowledgments
  51. About the Author
  52. About the Publisher

She nodded. “Yeah. Because when I opened his office, I was here.”

Héctor gasped. “No!” he said. “No way!”

“Yep,” she said. “I’m pretty sure the Room protected me.”

Héctor sat back down on the couch. “Because what Sal just said was super messed up. Which would mean that you felt unsafe.”

“Exactly!”

“I get it,” he said. “But also . . . who says something like that?”

“Right?” Juliana sat next to him. “People always assume the worst because I’m Black. I even get it from other Asian people, too. It’s not fair!”

“I remember the first time I heard someone say that word like that,” said Héctor. He told her about an older white man on the Muni train who was mad that Tim, Sophia, and Héctor were being “too loud” in the afternoon. He had looked directly at Sophia when he said it, too.

Juliana scoffed at him. “Isn’t it super bougie there?”

Héctor sighed. “Yeah. It’s changed a lot lately.” He allowed a silence to grow between them. “I still miss living there, Juliana. Every day.”

“I can tell,” she said. “I guess I don’t really know what that’s like. I’ve always been in Charleston.”

“I don’t think it would be so bad if we had moved somewhere cool,” he said. “Orangevale feels like I’m living on another planet. I guess it’s not that bad, but I don’t understand anything here.” He sighed. “And my old friends . . . I don’t know. I think they aren’t that interested in me anymore.”

“Why do you say that?” Juliana asked, and then she smiled. “You’re a very interesting person, Héctor.”

“It just seems like I can’t really talk to them anymore. Not about the important stuff.”

“I’m sorry,” she said. “Well, at least you have this place.” A pause. “And us.”

But his thoughts from the past weekend crept back in his head. He had the Room, sure, but only when he was at school. Only when he was in the hallways. Only when it decided that he needed it. He couldn’t spend his whole life inside a magical janitor’s closet.

Juliana finally stood up and sighed. “Well, I have to go deal with the principal,” she said. “So, by the next time you see me, I’ll have come out to my mom.” She took a deep breath. “I’ll be fine, I’m sure.”

“I wish we could help you,” said Héctor.

“I know,” she said. “And I wish I had gotten the courage to tell you sooner.”

“No, don’t feel bad!” he said, and he quickly stood. “I’m just glad you trusted us enough.”

Juliana closed the space between them and gripped Héctor in a tight hug. “Thank you,” she said. “Really.”