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Chapters (52)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Chapter One
  4. Chapter Two
  5. Chapter Three
  6. Chapter Four
  7. Chapter Five
  8. Chapter Six
  9. Chapter Seven
  10. Chapter Eight
  11. Chapter Nine
  12. Chapter Ten
  13. Chapter Eleven
  14. Chapter Twelve
  15. Chapter Thirteen
  16. Chapter Fourteen
  17. Chapter Fifteen
  18. Chapter Sixteen
  19. Chapter Seventeen
  20. Chapter Eighteen
  21. Chapter Nineteen
  22. Chapter Twenty
  23. Chapter Twenty-One
  24. Chapter Twenty-Two
  25. Chapter Twenty-Three
  26. Chapter Twenty-Four
  27. Chapter Twenty-Five
  28. Chapter Twenty-Six
  29. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  30. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  31. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  32. Chapter Thirty
  33. Chapter Thirty-One
  34. Chapter Thirty-Two
  35. Chapter Thirty-Three
  36. Chapter Thirty-Four
  37. Chapter Thirty-Five
  38. Chapter Thirty-Six
  39. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  40. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  41. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  42. Chapter Forty
  43. Chapter Forty-One
  44. Chapter Forty-Two
  45. Chapter Forty-Three
  46. Chapter Forty-Four
  47. Chapter Forty-Five
  48. Chapter Forty-Six
  49. Epilogue
  50. Acknowledgments
  51. About the Author
  52. About the Publisher

The noise from the other side of the curtain continued to grow; the rest of the school was getting settled in the auditorium. Héctor watched as Sal tucked farther into the shadow by the wall to stay hidden from Mike and Frank.

This has to work, Héctor thought.

He stepped forward and walked to center stage.

A single beam of light popped on above him and showered down, casting a perfect circle around Héctor, illuminating him and his outfit.

He had the red flannel tied around his waist, the same one he’d stuffed back into his closet weeks ago. His black denim cutoffs looked perfect with his brown boots and the black tank top.

Héctor’s two bullies crept toward him, glee and hunger on their faces.

He was done dressing how other people wanted him to. He had tried so hard to be what these boys wanted: Quiet. Obedient. Small. Normal.

No more.

It was time for Héctor to step into a starring role.

And it was the role of a lifetime:

He was going to be himself.

Héctor raised his hands up. “You got me,” he said.

Mike stalked up to him, his face just inches from Héctor’s. “Why you gotta be so dramatic, Heck-tor? Is it because you just can’t help it?”

Frank snickered.

“Yes,” said Héctor. “I truly can’t help it. This is who I am.”

“We don’t like your kind around here,” Frank said, and it was like the words slithered out of his mouth.

“What kind would that be?” Héctor asked. “Just . . . humor me.”

Mike squinted at Héctor, then looked to Frank. “What? What are you talking about?”

“Well, I just don’t understand what my ‘kind’ is.”

Mike began to circle around Héctor, confusion spreading over his face. “Yo, this is gay,” said Mike.

“Yes, it is!” exclaimed Héctor. “Is that what you mean? You don’t like that kind of person?”

“I don’t,” Mike said forcefully. “You’re weird. Unnatural.”

That stung Héctor a bit, but this improvised play was just getting good. He had to go further into the role, to let the harmful things Mike and Frank said slide off him.

Frank hovered behind Mike. “Yeah,” he said. “Do you have a crush on us? Is that why you’re so annoying? I bet you do.”

“I bet when he goes home, he dreams about us,” added Mike.

“Freak.”

“Loser.”

“Weirdo.”

Then Mike put his nose against Héctor’s, as he had done before.

Héctor tried his best not to back up, not to show Mike how terrified he was.

“I know exactly what you are,” said Mike.

He smiled.

And then he said the word.

Again.

He said it with confidence. He meant both syllables.

His smile grew wider.