Back The Friend
Chapters (85)
  1. Cover
  2. Also by Joakim Zander
  3. THE FRIEND
  4. Copyright
  5. Contents
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraph
  8. 1
  9. 5 August
  10. 21 November
  11. 5 August
  12. 21 November
  13. 5 August
  14. 21 November
  15. 12 August
  16. 21 November
  17. 14 August
  18. 21 November
  19. 17–22 August
  20. 22 November
  21. 24 August
  22. 22 November
  23. 7 September–16 October
  24. 22 November
  25. 16 October
  26. 22 November
  27. 20 October
  28. 22 November
  29. 20 October–13 November
  30. 22 November
  31. 13–14 November
  32. 22 November
  33. 14 November
  34. 22 November
  35. 14 November
  36. 23 November
  37. 14 November
  38. 2
  39. 23 November
  40. 14 November
  41. 23 November
  42. 14–15 November
  43. 23 November
  44. 15 November
  45. 23–24 November
  46. 15 November
  47. 24 November
  48. 15–21 November
  49. 24 November
  50. 21 November
  51. 24 November
  52. 23 November
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  60. 3
  61. 24 November
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  65. 25 November
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  81. 26 November
  82. 26 November
  83. 26–28 November
  84. Acknowledgements
  85. An Invitation from the Publisher

But Yassim leans over, and grabs the computer out of Jacob’s hands. ‘Okay, okay,’ he says. ‘If you’re so fucking curious then you might as well see. But only a few.’

Jacob nods and moves his chair closer to him. For a moment he thought there were no pictures. That there was only this blinding passion, Myriam’s version, and guns taped under tables.

Yassim’s fingers fly over the keyboard, putting in his password, and Jacob focuses on memorizing what he types. Just numbers. 201207… He doesn’t see the last two. Fuck!

The background is a solid blue. There’s only one nameless folder on the desktop. Yassim quickly clicks on a Photoshop icon in the dock and the screen fills with tiny pictures. He also finds a folder on the left side that Jacob didn’t see at first and clicks on it. Eight thumbnail images appear on the screen and he clicks on the first one. It’s of a small, dirty boy sitting in the back of a truck with a blank stare. Around him is only rubble and ruins.

‘Western Aleppo,’ Yassim says, and clicks on the next picture.

A house that’s lost its whole front wall, so that you can see straight into people’s apartments, like a doll’s house. Armchairs and sofas and beds. Yassim enlarges the image.

‘The table was still set,’ he says.

He shows a few more pictures of civilians, ordinary people in the midst of indescribable destruction and misery. Then he stands up and shares the rest of the coffee between them.

Jacob takes out his phone and takes a picture of what’s on the screen. ‘Terrible,’ he says. ‘I honestly don’t understand how you have the strength to face it. Or the bravery to go there.’

‘What are you doing?’ Yassim says and turns around. ‘Stop taking fucking pictures of the screen, okay?’ His voice is suddenly empty again, like the first time Jacob was here. Like when he said if he had secrets he’d hide them better.

‘I’m sorry,’ Jacob says. ‘I’m deleting them. I didn’t know I couldn’t, just wanted something of yours.’ Was that the reason he was photographing them?

‘Delete them,’ Yassim says. ‘The resolution is shitty, and they haven’t been published yet.’

Jacob opens the Photos app on his phone, marks the pictures and holds his thumb above the trash icon. But he doesn’t press. ‘Okay,’ he says. ‘I’m sorry.’

‘You have to ask me first,’ Yassim says. He’s at Jacob’s side now, staring into his eyes. He slowly bends forward and grabs Jacob’s chin hard. ‘We’re not married, no matter how much you like me. Do you understand?’