“Tonia,” says Sofia, who wants to fill the room with anything, even the sound of her own voice, “YOU HAVE TO SEE!” This comes out too loud. She knows immediately.

All three adults look up from their steaming silent bowls and her mother glares and says, “That’s way too loud,” and her father says, “Why don’t you girls go play in your room,” and so Sofia and Antonia get up meekly and grit their teeth against the scraping of wooden chair on wooden floor and run down the hall together. The air gets lighter as they go, as if their parents’ moods can only dampen a certain radius. Both girls are breathless with escape. How often have they done this, running like wildfire through a meadow, so eager to make something new together.

“We can play adventure,” says Sofia, digging through her toy chest for a pair of leather-rimmed goggles.

Antonia ties a scarf around her neck. She is free. She is free. She is going somewhere else. “We’re arctic explorers!”

Sofia looks at her disdainfully. “You are wearing a royal gown, not an explorer’s uniform. You should tie that around your head,” but Antonia looks at her with a quiet, wild venom and Sofia acquiesces. “Maybe you are a royal explorer.”

“We’re arctic explorers,” says Antonia, climbing onto Sofia’s bed and holding her hand to her brow to shade her eyes as she surveys the terrain, “and we have run out of food.”

Sofia jumps up next to Antonia. “We’re weak with hunger!”

“We are hunting a polar bear!”

“But it won’t come out of its cave!”

“We have written letters to our families to tell them we love them.” Antonia is solemn, just barely on the wrong side of the make-believe reckoning with mortality. “They will find our bodies in the springtime.” Her voice trembles.

“Maybe we should play something else,” says Sofia. She sits on the edge of the bed.

Antonia acts as if she does not hear. “Our souls will be in Heaven,” she says quietly.

“Antonia, I think we should play something else,” says Sofia. She twists a corner of the blanket in her fingers.

Antonia turns around, eyes on fire, arms raised. “I am an arctic explorer,” she says loudly, towering over Sofia.

“Antonia, this isn’t fun,” says Sofia.

“I am alone in the wilderness. Everyone has left me. I voted to stay alone because I am a women’s sufferer and I can vote. I stayed here and I wanted to be alone.”

Sofia says nothing. Antonia is unrecognizable. Her voice is coming from somewhere outside of her body. Suddenly Antonia’s calm face cracks down the middle. She melts onto the bed next to Sofia. “I don’t want to play anymore,” she says.

“Okay,” says Sofia. She is uncomfortable and suddenly wishes Antonia would leave.

“I don’t want to play!” says Antonia.

“I heard you,” says Sofia.