Back The Color of Air
Chapters (76)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Mauna Loa: November 21, 1935
  5. 1. Mangoes
  6. 2. Watching Over Him
  7. 3. Rising Winds
  8. 4. The Okawa Fish Market
  9. 5. Beauty and the Beast
  10. 6. Homecoming
  11. 7. Waiting
  12. 8. In the Quiet
  13. Ghost Voices
  14. Carrying On: November 23–25, 1935
  15. 9. Sanctuary
  16. 10. Fire and Ice
  17. 11. The Sugar Train
  18. 12. The Green Bungalow
  19. 13. The House Call
  20. 14. The House on the Hill
  21. Island Voices
  22. The Past, the Present: November 25–26, 1935
  23. 15. Island Boys
  24. 16. Hide-and-Seek
  25. 17. The Bulletin Board
  26. Ghost Voices
  27. You Can’t Hide: November 27–December 4, 1935
  28. 18. A New Direction
  29. 19. One Step Forward
  30. 20. Awakening
  31. 21. Puli Plantation
  32. Island Voices
  33. Lost and Found: December 6–8, 1935
  34. 22. Ashes
  35. 23. The Surprise
  36. 24. The Scenic Express
  37. Ghost Voices
  38. And Then . . .: December 11–16, 1935
  39. 25. Restless
  40. 26. Collecting
  41. 27. Sugarcane
  42. 28. A Visitor
  43. 29. Run
  44. 30. Nightmares
  45. 31. Packing
  46. Ghost Voices
  47. Secrets: December 17–18, 1935
  48. 32. Town Boy
  49. 33. Nori
  50. 34. Naupaka
  51. Ghost Voices
  52. Answers: December 18–20, 1935
  53. 35. Lava
  54. 36. Uncle Koji
  55. 37. The Truth of It
  56. Ghost Voices
  57. Waiting: December 22–26, 1935
  58. 38. Revelations
  59. 39. Safe Places
  60. 40. Mele Kalikimaka
  61. Ghost Voices
  62. Shooting the Moon: December 27–31, 1935
  63. 41. Blackbirds
  64. 42. Mosquitoes
  65. 43. Faith
  66. 44. The River
  67. Ghost Voices
  68. A New Year: January 1–2, 1936
  69. 45. The Beating Heart
  70. 46. January 2, 1936
  71. 47. The Living
  72. Ghost Voices
  73. Hilo: July 28, 1936
  74. 48. The Mango Tree
  75. Acknowledgments
  76. About the Publisher

“That’s why I want you there, to keep me careful, yeah, like always,” Razor added. “You can’t keep standing on the sidelines. I won’t take no for an answer this time.”

Koji looked away before Razor saw the quick flicker of guilt he felt. He was right: Koji had run out of excuses.

“What time?” Koji asked.

“Seven p.m. At the cabin.”

“I’ll be there,” he said.

“Promise me.”

And there was young Razor again, that kid always trying to coerce him to play one more game of baseball, even when it was almost dark and the lunas would eventually come out and chase them back to Kazoku village.

“I promise,” he said.

Razor smiled. Only then did he let him go.

* * *

They drove down the road in silence until Daniel braked to slow down as they turned off the main road.

“When did you tell my mother that my father had returned?” Daniel asked, his voice calm.

Koji inhaled and took his time. He was going to tell the story only once. What Daniel did with it was up to him. He didn’t need to protect either of them any longer.

“When I came back down to visit the following Sunday,” Koji answered.

“What did she say?”

“She was hurt, yeah. And angry, but not as surprised as I thought she would be. As if she knew he’d be back one day.” Koji glanced at him, adding, “Your father came back because he was in trouble.”

“What kind of trouble?” Daniel asked. He slowed down as they bounced over the rutted dirt road.

“He’d been gambling in Honolulu, owed a lot of money. He came back because he needed money from your mother.”

Daniel looked over at him, surprised. “She didn’t have any money,” he said, quiet and filled with emotion.

Koji paused, swallowed, and kept talking. “I told him I’d get him the money if he would leave you and your mother alone, yeah. We agreed to meet again down at the beach early the next morning. That was when Mama saw us, when she was out early collecting shells.”

“You had the money?”

“Most. I’ve never needed much. Borrowed the rest.”

Daniel turned down another road that led directly to the beach, and Koji rolled down his window. It was windier down by the water, the air cooler, smelling briny and reminding him of the sea urchins they used to catch when they were young on the rougher, wilder north side of the beach, where the currents ran stronger.

“He never asked about my mother?” Daniel asked.

The truck bumped and squeaked.

“No.”

The word fell flat and hard, like a rock hitting water.

“Did he ask about me?”

“No,” Koji said again.

“You never saw him again?”

Koji shook his head. “No.”