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Chapters (46)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter One
  6. Chapter Two
  7. Chapter Three
  8. Chapter Four
  9. Chapter Five
  10. Chapter Six
  11. Chapter Seven
  12. Chapter Eight
  13. Chapter Nine
  14. Chapter Ten
  15. Chapter Eleven
  16. Chapter Twelve
  17. Chapter Thirteen
  18. Chapter Fourteen
  19. Chapter Fifteen
  20. Chapter Sixteen
  21. Chapter Seventeen
  22. Chapter Eighteen
  23. Chapter Nineteen
  24. Chapter Twenty
  25. Chapter Twenty-One
  26. Chapter Twenty-Two
  27. Chapter Twenty-Three
  28. Chapter Twenty-Four
  29. Chapter Twenty-Five
  30. Chapter Twenty-Six
  31. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  32. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  33. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  34. Chapter Thirty
  35. Chapter Thirty-One
  36. Chapter Thirty-Two
  37. Chapter Thirty-Three
  38. Chapter Thirty-Four
  39. Chapter Thirty-Five
  40. Chapter Thirty-Six
  41. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  42. Epilogue
  43. Acknowledgments
  44. About the Author
  45. Also by Jenny Colgan
  46. About the Publisher

She followed a sign that said “PhD Offices,” hoping a nice staff member would take pity on her once she finally got there. She was beginning to feel very tired and slightly spacey.

There was nobody in the offices either. It must be their Christmas lunch or something. She nearly cried. There were, however, doors leading down a large corridor, with names on each one. Surnames, which wasn’t helpful. But many of them had little jokes on them—cartoons or signs. And on one of them was a Gary Larson cartoon of his usual pointy-headed men examining the rings of an old tree and saying something that made no sense to Carmen whatsoever but was presumably hilarious if you knew a lot about trees.

“Dr. Benezet,” the door said. So. Dr. Benezet was his name. Carmen rubbed her mouth. How strange, to come so far and not know his name.

She ran her fingers through her hair, blotted on some lipstick—God, she must look knackered. Well, she couldn’t think about that now. She couldn’t. All she could think about was him. She steeled herself—and knocked.

THERE WAS NO answer. Nothing. The entire building really did feel empty, as if there had been a fire alarm; she was sure she could sense nobody there. She turned the handle of the door and found it swinging open.

With a guilty sense of trespassing, she walked in. The window faced over the town; you could just see a snow-topped Arthur’s Seat. The snowfall outside was thickening by the minute.

But in the room itself there was nothing. A whiteboard left with a beautifully intricate sketch of some deep roots on it. Blu Tack on the walls where perhaps pictures had been. No computer; an empty desk, a lamp, an office chair, and a sitting chair, with several others stacked chairs for seminars. A long bookshelf with nothing but a thin line of dust on it. No books. Nothing else.

Carmen swallowed, a mounting dread growing in her. No. It wasn’t possible. He hadn’t gone. He was staying. He’d told her that he . . . that he might stay.

She heard footsteps and turned around, panicked, looking back up the corridor.

The figure advanced slowly, carrying a large cardboard box, and as it gradually revealed itself, Carmen felt her heart pound. “Skylar,” she said.

Skylar stared at her. “Oh. You. Are you looking for Oke?”

Carmen felt a tiny prick of hope. “Yes . . .”

“He’s gone.”

“Gone where?”

“Gone home. He decided not to extend. Why did you want to see him?”

Carmen couldn’t answer that. “Have you spoken to Sofia?” she said instead.

Skylar let out a hollow laugh. “Oh yes. Don’t worry about me. I don’t need to work with those damaged kids for a second longer.”

“They’re great kids!”

Skylar shrugged. “None of you are in the least bit spiritual. None of you. It’s so damaging.”