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Chapters (43)
  1. Author’s Note with Content Warnings
  2. CHAPTER ONE
  3. CHAPTER TWO
  4. CHAPTER THREE
  5. CHAPTER FOUR
  6. CHAPTER FIVE
  7. CHAPTER SIX
  8. CHAPTER SEVEN
  9. CHAPTER EIGHT
  10. CHAPTER NINE
  11. CHAPTER TEN
  12. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  13. CHAPTER TWELVE
  14. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  15. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  16. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  17. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  18. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  19. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  20. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  21. CHAPTER TWENTY
  22. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  31. CHAPTER THIRTY
  32. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  41. CHAPTER FORTY
  42. EPILOGUE
  43. Acknowledgments

I may have shattered mine, but I’m still holding a jagged, three-foot branch, and it’ll do the job just fine. I raise my spear in the direction of the Reverend’s beam, which overwhelms the bunker with blinding white. “We’re leaving, sir,” I bark. “Step back and let us through.”

“What are you going to do, Connor, kill us?” the Reverend asks, brittle and snide. “People will find out you butchered a defenseless Christian mission. There’ll be nowhere to go. Not for you. Not your friends outside. Not even those children. I can already see the headlines: Queers slaughter the righteous—people with families!”

“People with families? Like Karaoke Bill Hannigan?”

The bunker falls into stillness. A cold laughter breaks. “Mr. Major, you really are making me sorry I ever brought you to Nightlight. Hats off. Karaoke Bill Hannigan. I’m happy you brought him up because that’s just what I came to talk about.”

With a deafening slam, the Reverend shuts his floodlight, sinking the bunker into an even blacker darkness than before. As multicolored globules swim past my vision, the stout, raven-like outline of the Reverend appears under the lamp above the exit. Somewhere ahead, Darcy and Marcos linger close to him, too close for my comfort. With one good heave, Marcos could impale the Reverend right through his shriveled heart, and we’d be free.

But how would it look? Could we convince anyone this was self-defense? If this were a TV show, I’d say, “Of course people will believe us!” But after what I’ve been through today, I wouldn’t trust my mom to believe I was in danger if I came home in a body bag.

“So, what do you want?” I ask.

“I want five minutes,” the Reverend says, descending the remaining steps to us. Through the shadows, Marcos raises his spear, but halfheartedly; he’s done the same math I have. The Reverend approaches Marcos with a long, flat box in his free hand. “Mr. Carrillo, thank you for not disemboweling me and congrats on your new courage.”

“Why do you need five minutes?” I demand, refusing to drop my spear.

“Because that’s how long my tape runs.”

The Reverend’s box opens like a briefcase. Two steps closer, the overhead light reveals a cassette player in his hand. Its open slot is empty, but once the Reverend drops his floodlight, he retrieves a tape from his shirt pocket. His gleeful smile never fades. He’s savoring this. Whatever Bill did, the Reverend is the puppeteer. He enjoys dangling us on strings—me, my mom, the campers, Briggs, Ricky…maybe even Bill himself.