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Chapters (43)
  1. Author’s Note with Content Warnings
  2. CHAPTER ONE
  3. CHAPTER TWO
  4. CHAPTER THREE
  5. CHAPTER FOUR
  6. CHAPTER FIVE
  7. CHAPTER SIX
  8. CHAPTER SEVEN
  9. CHAPTER EIGHT
  10. CHAPTER NINE
  11. CHAPTER TEN
  12. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  13. CHAPTER TWELVE
  14. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  15. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  16. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  17. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  18. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  19. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  20. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  21. CHAPTER TWENTY
  22. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  31. CHAPTER THIRTY
  32. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  41. CHAPTER FORTY
  42. EPILOGUE
  43. Acknowledgments

“Lead the way, Weezer,” I say, not remotely ready to continue hiking on the blisters that used to be my feet. “Hey, did you…call out the name Ario?”

“Oh, weird, right? Molly didn’t want me running into the jungle yelling ‘Connor!’ and lead them right to you, so she said to yell ‘Ario’ instead. She said you’d know what it meant and come running.”

Molly. Shady lady. “She thought of everything.”

“So…what’s Ario?”

Unprepared to be walloped by such an obvious follow-up question, I tug Ario’s recorder through my shirt for good luck. “Nobody.” Hearing myself say the lie throws another thousand miles between me and my boyfriend. Ario and I are running out of time—now, no longer just because he’s leaving for college, but because I’m a different person than I was forty-eight hours ago. And when I get home—if I get home—I’ll be even differenter.

I’m no clock, but this was not a fifteen-minute hike. Each step sliced into my pounding, throbbing feet, relieved only when the jungle’s encroaching darkness broke away into gray daylight. The rain began halfway through our trip, and when we finally exit the forest canopy, I drink in as much as possible.

For the rest of my life, I’ll never be hydrated enough.

The storming sky has become an unassailable wall of granite, marked only by foggy halos encircling the island peaks that rise in the distance beyond Lake Monteverde. Marcos was an excellent guide—he led us directly to the edge of the waterfall dropping half a stadium off the clifftop. The waterfall pummels the lake, spraying outward in a fine mist that’s just as agreeable as this rain on my sun-battered face. Scanning left, the high grass smothering the lakeshore continues for miles without a single Nightlight cabin, gray-shirt, or camper in sight. Marcos was right: the sudden absence of human life in this camp is maximum creepy.

“We’re the first ones here,” I say. “Maybe we shouldn’t wait out in the open.”

“There’s a cavern behind the falls,” Marcos says, striking an unexpectedly rugged pose as he points confidently toward our destination. Clutching his wrist for support, I follow as we mount the long, slanted rocks leading to the falls’ base. It’s a risky voyage. Rain, mist, and lapping lake water have turned the rocks slippery; Marcos’s wide-legged stance keeps him dependably upright, but my teeny chicken legs won’t stop wobbling until we come face-to-face with the waterfall.

I follow Marcos through the roaring curtain of water, and inside, a cavern welcomes us. The falls provide a soundproof cloak against the world outside, allowing only scant flecks of daylight into the grotto. Marcos flicks open his lighter, and a small flame illuminates a ledge in front of us: a shimmering, black-green rock shelf rises to my chest, and from it, a slope continues upward into darkness.